i know i've posted on here many a times and needing help every time but i need some advice soon and i'm getting tired of waiting for someone to come to the chat room. i'm still ok as far as my depression is concerned, still off my meds. i don't know what to do though, i have an appointment with the psychologist nov 3 (the day after my birthday and the day before i had planned on committing suicide) i don't know what to tell him. let me explain, the closer nov 4th gets the more i want to die and thinking about the note and how to do it. i want to hang myself with a bed sheet or shoot myself or more so take a bunch of prozac and sleeping pills and alcohol and hang myself. i sit here crying sometimes just don't know what is wrong or what to do. my psychologist says if things are bad again he will put me back on meds and want me to stay on them for a year. my problems are more than physical and mental, my problems are my heart being hurt time and time again (emotional). different things all balled up in one big ball. any advice on what to say to the psychologist without him putting me back on meds i sure would appreciate. I believe God is through jusing meds in my life now it is just a matter of sorting through my mess of problems. thanks for being there for me so far, please continue to pray and be there again or give me some advice. some of you i'm having a hard time getting in touch with so i posted this for now. april