I'm at a point in my life where i don't feel loved at all. Sure I "know" that I am loved because the scriptures write of it, but I am not feeling "loved". It's gotten to the point where I fell that no man or woman, let alone, God could ever love me.
My phone never rings, My inbox only contains mass generated newsletters, My facebook wall has only my entries on it. and my SMS inbox has only sms subscriptions in it.
I'm starting to feel that i am somehow exempt for the body of Christ and from the love that everybody else seems to freely receive, For what reason I do not know
I recognize this as a problem so I am officially sending out an SOS. Please help
A few thoughts from scripture.....shared recently..........And yes....He loves you too
John wrote the gospel that bears his name in the 1st century. Sixty years later John was deeply moved at the recollection of these wonderful experiences. As the Holy Spirit inspired him he wrote of many things, which he had seen and heard as he followed Jesus during his earthly ministry..
Deeply moved. Jn 13: 23 "Now there was leaning on Jesus bosom (writing this 60 years later)
one of his disciples whom Jesus loved".....He wanted to be as close to Jesus as he could get... ... so he was leaning on his bosom. ..See just before this Jesus had done something that blew John away..
Just before this Jesus had girded himself with a towel... taken a basin of water and he had gone right down the line washing the disciples feet,... until he came to the place where John was, and he knelt right there before John.......
Can only imagine what John must have been feeling.... Surely he felt his heart was going to burst as his LOrd and Master knelt before him and began to wash his feet... ...
Before that day and that moment....John knew that Jesus loved him...
But he had never really grasped how much until;. that very moment when Jesus knelt before him and started to wash his feet. John refers to himself as the
"disciple whom Jesus loved" . but this was the first time as he wrote these words 60 years later, he was overwhelmed as he experienced that unbelievable feeling all over again.
That feeling he had all those years before when he realised for the first time, the vast extent of the love of Jesus towards him personally..
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I am that disciple whom Jesus loves. As the LOrd gave him inspiration John continued to write until as he wrote he was takan once again to the very foot of the cross,.. to the very place where he had stood with Jesus mother.. decades earlier. Now once again after 6 decades. in his mind's eye he could see Jesus, as he had done so long ago. . Jesus badly bruised,. beaten beyond recognition, .. see him suffering great pain and humilation all over again.
You know when John stood at this scene which had occured many years before.......John had no clue at that time,... he could not understand why this was necessary....Why did Jesus have to die? ...But now as he wrote his gospel he clearly understood what it meant.....deeply moved as he penned the words Jn 19: 26 "When Jesus saw his mother. and the disciple standing by, "
whom he loved"
Jesus said to his mother "Mother behold thy son, son behold thy mother" If John had been moved as Jesus stooped to wash his feet , ... he was that much more moved now as he remembered Calvary, as he could see Jesus once again in his minds eye.....could see it as if it were yesterday.....for never before had he seen such an act of pure love as this.
Now as he writes about it He is reminded once again that that great love of Jesus was being directed towards him. It was for him that Jesus had died on the cross
...I am that disciple that Jesus loved. You are that disciple whom Jesus loves......
You.... Over the years John had let it settle in his mind that Jesus loved him..........He loved them all.......but JOhn responded to that love
John 20 v 1-2 "First day ofd the week cometh Mary Magdalene early while it was yet dark to the sepulchure, she seeth the stone rolled away. she runs to Simon Peter and to that
other disciple whom Jesus loved, and said to them ..
"They have taken away the LOrd out of the sepulchure, and we dont know where they have laid him"... As John writes these words many years later he remembers first the fear......at that moment....then the apprehension, and the confusion,... ..finally the unbelievable joy and tremendous relief when he realised that Jesus was alive....
Jesus is alive. He realised that Jesus had literally risen from the dead.......Now as he writes he writes with perfect understanding of the significance of the resurrection in his own life, ...and before you know it he is reffering to himself once again......
everything he did he did it for me........I am the disciple whom Jesus loved. You are that disciple that Jesus loves
Lets return that love to him.......right now.
Everything Jesus did he did it for me and for you. He did not do it for people in general...He did it for people as individuals...He did it for me. He did it for you
"I am that disciple Jesus loved"......Lets say it together.......Lets get a revelation of his mighty love for us. Paul says that we might get some understanding..... of the length ...the breadth, ....the height ....the depth....why? So that we might be filled with all the fullness of God.
If we could just understand how much he loves us. He wants to do so much with us and through us today
Once people see that you are a loving person...and that God loves you...there is no turning back.
