Trish
Sorry pet hadn't noticed your post before I replied.
Your so right, if you can't tell people how you are helped and that also they too can be helped the same way, what do you do, you desire to tell because it's true, you try to put it over very simply, thinly as I've said above.
Like, I thank God that it was Him who helped me.
In the hope that one would have enquired of me more, that's why I only dropped it in thin.
Instead I got a reaction about all this 'God talk' I felt insulted, so don't know what the Lord Jesus felt, but then He has taken so much of that, and I'm not innocent either, I don't forget the mire from which I was dug, though perhaps not as often as I should when I'm with the unsaved.
I find that a bit hard at times I find I would be guilty of spiritual sobbery I hold my hand up, the Lord knows anyway.
I have to keep constantly reminding myself when I see others painting on the Lord's Day, 'didn't you' or washing cars or cutting grass etc 'didn't you' I would have even passed comment to my unsaved hubby, 'car boot sale on the Lord's day' not that he'd take any notice, but I have to stop all that, spiritual sobbery, not good.
If you like to tell me about your illness Trish, I'm all ears sister.
I've suffered with Mental verbal abuse for donkeys years now from my hubby, whether or not that was the spark that lit the fuse, I'm not sure I know it couldn't have helped none.
It was a C.P.N once I attended told me after going to him a few months, he said Maureen that's were your problem lays with you husband he's the cause of your mental health.
Well as you can imagine my hubby didn't take kindly to hearing that, he wasn't in when Rob said it but he asked me what he said afterwards I told him, he refused me to continue on my appts with him and that was that.
He was a great guy that C.P.N. not because he said that about my husband but because he put his finger on the cause, I hadn't at that stage of my life. I even toyed with the idea he was wrong.
But he wasn't as years after with that in mind, it proved right.
It is only the Lord gets me through each day Trish, I would have been gone without Jesus in my life, as I've been put out a few times by Evan even on crutches once for taking my stand for truth, but I had Jesus and I was happy, honestly.
Now wasn't I wanting to help others with knowing that, you better believe it.
I've always prayed for the drink problem to be taken away, and what happened 6months ago, he was diagnose with diabetes, so he had to give it up, he tried curtailling it, couldn't do it, got so drunk that it gave him such a fright he knocked it on the head totally.
His ways our not our ways, I never expected that as the answer but it was, He knows best indeed, had to be medical or he'd not keep to it, and Evan is extremely good when it comes to his health in jepardy, the Lord knew were to work, Hallelujah.
It's still not plain saillng, was nearly put out again just last Sunday, I would have asked to be removed next day instead, couldn't pack up the car on Sunday now, :wink: I have moved back in on a Sunday it was last time, 1 half year ago now.
That was because he was full drunk too, and I'd missed him when I went to give him lift home, he got soaked in the rain, I found him and he refuse to get in the car, I had my wee Grandson in with me too, he was 10yrs, he still would say an odd time, remember when Granda was drunk and wouldn't get in the car Granny and he shouted, sorry he had to witness that, but he was staying and I had to bring him.
Ah Trish, I could write a book if I'd the mind to, don't know if I have it in me for that big task.
That's been twice in one week I've taken stuff from two differant sorces over my Lord.
I went last Friday night, this was why I was being put out again, to a meeting of Al-Anon, it is for the people who are affected by someone's else in the family who takes alcohol.
I couldn't tell him before hand were I was going, I wouldn't have been allowed out the door, been there, done that, or told if you go out that door don't come back, so I made arrangements with friend to meet up for cappo's i told him that, just left out the rest, don't know if that's lying, I didn't feel I was, otherwise I couldn't have done it, too much conviction there'd be. I wouldn't return home after it, as he'd been trying to contact me via mobile and when he couldn't receive a reply he knew something wasn't right.
I told him then about meeting but not the name of it, as it's too much like A.A. and he'd have clicked it, said what I told the ladies there, because of diabetes he's had to give up drinking, it's made him angry, cross, grumpy, hard to deal with, it was like he was still intoxicated Trish but he wasn't, his attitude was though.
I stayed at my youngest son's home, and the good lad that he is went to pick up my meds and wash bag, and told his Dad I was at that meeting for him, to find out ways in which to help him cope not having diabetes and having to stop drinking which is making him miserable.
That changed his mind about putting me out again, praise the Lord indeed, as this time I really didn't want to go.
Well I've also decided with much prayer and also receiving a 'word' through Sunday's service speaker, 'Why seek ye the living amongst the dead' I felt I was putting God on 'hold' while I saught the wisdom of this group for help, when Jesus has been the one helper and sustainer throughout, plus I had 4 discrepancies with their 'rules' won't go into them here, it's long enough I think to read this.
So I've come here to type a letter to post to them, perhaps will deliver it as it's on tomorrow night and I want them to have it then, in the hope they will read it out, it's the only way to get my point across, my fingers talk better than the tongue, I'm sure you see that.
Believe me it's true.
Jesus has done marvelous things, and a few weeks ago, I took this verse Jeremiah 33 v 3 to my heart, I couldn't get past it in my daily reading.
'Call upon my name and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things which thou knowest now'
They have been appearing too, I have had answers lately, again it was confirmed only yesterday in daily reading about 'Great things' wanted to follow 'Daily Bread' booklet but couldn't had to follow the spirit, and again was told about great things' so I know they will be revealed, I just have to wait patiently on the Lord.
I hope I've not yakked on to bore anyone, forgive was not my intention.
It is great though to come here and be able to speak freely and openly about Jesus, I am thankful for this wonderful place, and all you who see to it that it runs smoothly,
Thank you from my heart.
