Hello all. This is my first post. I'm a Christian but only recently have resumed reading the bible, going to church etc. I know that the solution to our problems is through prayer and talking to God .
I think you are a brave person sharing your heart on these boards; there is much wisdom in these posts for you to ponder on and absorb to make the words part of your life. Excuse the long post as I would like to address your issues in depth. There is a saying ~Let Go & Let God~ we cannot force God’s hand, only hand over to Him our needs on a daily basis. As was previously mentioned, this situation has been faced by Christians before you. Your situation may be unique to you and at the same time you are not alone, there are those who understand you totally. Be encouraged to keep moving forward with faith that God is with you every step of the way even if you don’t feel it. Know it. [John 8:32] “and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
I'm having serious difficulty with this. Everytime I start praying or talking to God, negative thoughts start coming in my head like what am I doing here ?
If you see yourself as God sees you, you will gain a different perspective of yourself. Train your mind to look outward as opposed to inward, if we continually see our shortcomings it will bring you down. You were intended to be great in the eyes of God. Have heart you are on the right path.
[Is 40:28] “Do you not know or have you not heard? The LORD is the eternal God, creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint nor grow weary, and his knowledge is beyond scrutiny.[29] He gives strength to the fainting; for the weak he makes vigor abound.[30] Though young men faint and grow weary, and youths stagger and fall,[31] They that
hope in the LORD will renew their strength, they will soar as with eagles' wings; They will run and not grow weary, walk and not grow faint.”
[Rom 1:16] “For I am not ashamed of the gospel. It is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: for Jew first, and then Greek.”
There is no shame in the knowledge of Jesus Christ. Don’t take it on board, let it go. Believing Jesus took away your shame & guilt makes your journey that much sweeter.
why was I created ? was it God who created me or my parents ? I don't see my life as a gift but as a huge burden I don't know what's the purpose of my life I feel so insignificant it hurts.
You were created to bring glory to God and Love others. [Exo 20:3] “You shall not have other gods besides me.” The knowledge that you have been given allows us to come to God. God created humanity, he is the creator and yet we find here [Prov 23:22] “Listen to your father who begot you, and despise not your mother when she is old.” [Prov 23:25] “Let your father and mother have joy; let her who bore you exult. And the penultimate-[Exodus 20:12] "Honor your father and your mother, that you may have a long life in the land which the LORD, your God, is giving you.”
[1 Peter 4:10] “As each one has received a gift, use it to serve one another as good stewards of God's varied grace.” You may not realise it now but you do have gifts; only you can do certain things that others cannot do quite like you can. Look at where you were six months ago, do you think you have moved a step forward? In your post you said you have just started to read your bible and attend church. I see that as progression. Sometimes when we are going through hard times we cannot see the forest for the trees. Keep persevering; God is actually refining you and bringing to the surface what needs to be dealt with to bring a bit of peace in your life. Keep believing the truth will free you from your thought patterns. [Rom 12:2] “Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.” As you are renewing your mind you will begin to find purpose in your life and you will have purpose.
I didn't ask to be born and often when I'm at a very low point, I ask God to have mercy on me and take me home. I know this sounds shameful and ungrateful but honestly I don't know what to do with this life and it's so boring and painful I feel like I'm going crazy.
Just to say you feel like you’re going crazy means you are not. Self-actualisation is the beginning of recovery. When you were unaware and did not know is what I believe is God’s way of protecting you. You have Gnosis now. I would actually be happy in this knowledge just to know God is drawing you out of your old life and into a new one. Your journey has brought you here. [Col 3:15] “And let the peace of Christ control your hearts, the peace into which you were also called in one body. And be thankful.”
It's so hard I try to convince myself that God must love me, but I hate myself so much I can't feel his love . Please help if you can I feel so depressed . Bless you all xxx
Depression can bring many unhealthy thought patterns that in the beginning we can’t quite get a grip of. The ‘good news’ is, is that you are aware of your thought patterns; hence your post here at TJ. Keep praying to God to search out your heart and bring restoration to the areas you need healing. Try not to isolate yourself too much. When you are alone with your thoughts and begin to entertain the old ways say to yourself [2 Cor 5:17] “So whoever is in Christ is a new creation: the old things have passed away; behold, new things have come.” Begin to believe this scripture and let it rest in your soul. Begin to challenge your old way of thinking about yourself and don’t be too hard on yourself.
Peace Be With You…
