poohbear1410
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So recently I have been diagnosed with Hypermobility, Dysautonomia, and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome(POTS). I started treatments about a week or so ago. I am in college and chose to take two courses this block: Abnormal Psychology and Sociology. I was so excited about taking both. My mom suggested that I take one course due to me having to start treatments and not knowing what the outcome of the treatments would be. My therapist also agreed as well. I prayed and prayed about it and I asked two ladies that I look up to at my church and they agreed that I should take one course. Also one of my professors that I’m close with, my best friend and a coworker that I’m also close to agreed. I also spoke to an advisor, but she said it would be up to me. I decided that taking one class would probably be the best decision. I didn’t know which class to keep. I was kinda leaning toward the Abnormal Psych, but wasn’t sure. My mom said which ever class is less overwhelming to keep it. My advisor said that between the two classes, the Sociology course would be the less overwhelming course since it’s an intro course and the Abnormal Psych class is higher level course. I spoke to the professor that I’m close with and she said don’t worry about taking the Abnormal Psych class. She said take the Sociology because it’ll be less on you and you don’t need to be stressing out when trying to deal with these treatments. My coworker also said the same exact thing. And my best friend did too. The one lady from my church also agreed. The other lady from my church said that I should take whatever class interested me the most. Since a majority of people said to take the Sociology and it was a bunch of people that would never led me astray I decided to drop the other course. I’ve also always known that if a majority of people (wise, credible, mature people) in your life all tell you the same thing after you have been praying to God for guidance, he uses those people to speak to you. So I decided that this was the course God wanted me to take. I’m now having a mental break down because I feel like I made the wrong choice. My mom keeps trying to tell me that I haven’t because a majority of people that I’ve talked to has said to take this certain course. I don’t know if it’s just my anxiety or whatever. But I keep freaking out that I chose the wrong class and should have chosen the other one. My mom keeps telling me I made the right decision because the other class would have overwhelmed me and she said “Alena you have talked to many people and they have all said the same thing about what course to take. Trust what these people have said to you. This is God’s way of speaking to you. Don’t second guess yourself.” But it’s like this feeling won’t go away and I’m freaking out. people keep telling me not to worry. That I can take the course I really wanted to take next block, but the teacher I really wanted to take it with isn’t teaching the course so that discourages me even more. And because of this anxiety it’s making me physically sick and I feel like I’m going to pass out and it makes me not want to do my assignments. I keep praying to God to help me through this, but it just seems like it gets worse
