Stylez4Christ
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As a Christian I living in a bit of a struggle life right now into a weak stages but back in forth in being a much stronger Christian but I hope you understand that and that if you follow your lord and savior and I just hope you pray for my situation because I hope that Jesus deliver me from his precious blood to cleanse me from my problems that I am going through but at the same time I know that he will make away for my life with a great plan because right now I don’t feel if I am close to being a servant or any such thing but even I go to a minister class with a calling in my life but don’t mean I have to. I just go there to learn to get ready to be a servant of God, amen.
I do have a feeling that people may look at me that if I am a real happy person but deep down in me is not always like that because what ever I go through that over whelms me is not pleasant but I don’t always tell people about my feelings because I am emotional and it is hard. But please pray for me.
Right Now I need strength because today I want into a backsliding stages where my problems seems to be enough right now. This is why yesterday last night I was crying my eyes out of gush of running nose to bed and it was depressing because I was crying for every problems and its been hard and even at home I have problems too that I just don’t want to live here no more that I want to move out because I can't stand everybody here anymore because of everyday drama fighting is just been like this when I was small and been abuse by this too and I can't stand living here anymore. I kind of wonder why my life is like this, it just makes me want to cry even more. But I don't know if anybody here feel my pain : (
I do have a feeling that people may look at me that if I am a real happy person but deep down in me is not always like that because what ever I go through that over whelms me is not pleasant but I don’t always tell people about my feelings because I am emotional and it is hard. But please pray for me.
Right Now I need strength because today I want into a backsliding stages where my problems seems to be enough right now. This is why yesterday last night I was crying my eyes out of gush of running nose to bed and it was depressing because I was crying for every problems and its been hard and even at home I have problems too that I just don’t want to live here no more that I want to move out because I can't stand everybody here anymore because of everyday drama fighting is just been like this when I was small and been abuse by this too and I can't stand living here anymore. I kind of wonder why my life is like this, it just makes me want to cry even more. But I don't know if anybody here feel my pain : (