Please pray for me - I am suffering due to a personal problem

[AwesomeJC]

Hi All,

I am writing today in urgent need of prayers. I am having a problem with someone close to me that keeps trying to cause me harm with constant, vile actions and lies about me. I cannot understand why this person (a family member), who I have always had respect for and have personally helped in their time of need, has so much hate towards me. I have never done anything negative towards this person but regardless, the attacks keep coming.

I suffer from severe anxiety and have suffered from depression before. Due to this problem, I am not able to be at peace. My mind feels like it is spinning out of control. I am not able to focus for work, which I fear will start to impact my performance. I feel tormented and my prayers don't feel like they are being answered. Maybe I'm not praying the right way or maybe God does not want to hear me but I'm hoping that with this message, he might be able to hear someone else's prayer to have mercy on me and help me overcome.

I often wonder if I am just a worthless person, who God has given up on. It is extremely difficult for me to convey in words how much I am suffering right now. My anxiety makes my days unbearable and I just don't know what to do. I feel like my situation and anxiety is too big for me overcome. I feel defeated, and powerless.

A lyric from one of my favorite songs (Just say Jesus) says "out of nowhere he will come...you got to believe it" and a part of me is holding out hope that he will come out of nowhere to finally save me from this years-long problem.

If someone could please keep me in their prayers, it would mean so much to me.

 

[AwesomeJC]

One of the hardest parts about going through this problem and especially with high anxiety is having to pretend around friends and family that everything is okay. I'm the type of person that keeps everything inside and don't want to share my problems as to not worry or inconvenience my loved ones. They don't know that behind my pretend smile, my pretend laugh, and my pretend cheerful disposition is a person who is suffering from the inside immensely. I feel like a shell of my former self. I am empty inside. I fear that it will eventually end me.

I am crying out to you, Jesus. Please save me.

 

[Br. Bear]

 

[AwesomeJC]

Br.Bear, thank you so much for sharing this video. It was comforting and it really touched me. Thank you.

 

[Br. Bear]

@AwesomeJC

Greetings again,

Please listen to it some more. Perhaps find some different versions with different singers?

I know it is not the first time you have heard it. but let the message sink in and even overtake your thoughts and concerns.

Is the problem you are having with your cousin?

Praying.

Jesus is Lord

Bless you ....><>

 

[Mayflower]

Psalm 23 really helps me with anxiety.

At night sometimes I'll turn on scripture because it helps me clear my thoughts. Sorry you are going through this and I will keep you and your family in prayer.

 

[AwesomeJC]

@AwesomeJC

Greetings again,

Please listen to it some more. Perhaps find some different versions with different singers?

I know it is not the first time you have heard it. but let the message sink in and even overtake your thoughts and concerns.

Is the problem you are having with your cousin?

Praying.

Jesus is Lord

Bless you ....><>

Hi Br. Bear,
thank you so much for your reply. This is a video that I will definitely keep watching and listening to. I’ve also spent the last few hours watching similar videos of worship songs and/or topics on Jesus to help keep my worrying thoughts from going out of control.

Regarding the problem - it is actually with an aunt, who also happens to be a devout Christian. That’s one of the things that I can’t wrap my head around…she is a Christian who‘s actions and words are not Christ-like. Honestly that’s one of the things that also hit me the most about this situation. I keep asking God why he‘s allowed her to keep attacking me for years, even though I have always been good to her. I keep asking why are there no consequences for her actions that are only intended to create discord. I ask where is the justice. It’s like a never ending nightmare with a few breaks here and there. Despite all this, I have always, ALWAYS found it in me to forgive her each time, no matter how vile she has been toward me. And the most recent incident hit me like a ton of bricks, even though I already knew it would be a matter of time before she did something again.

All of this mixed in with my severe anxiety is sometimes too much for me to handle. Sometimes I want to lay in bed, hoping that I fall asleep and not wake up.

I hope for Jesus to finally relieve me of this pain.

 

[AwesomeJC]

Thank you so much Mayflower. I really appreciate the videos and prayers. i can’t sleep so these can help me keep my mind at ease

 

[Br. Bear]

Greetings,

All of this mixed in with my severe anxiety is sometimes too much for me to handle

can i strongly suggest that you give your anxiety to the Lord? You have to let go of it, if you give it, though... else it is not given!

You have been purchased with a price. Everything about you belongs to the Lord and you, like all of us, must stop holding onto and claiming as ours ( "my severe anxiety" ) everything... and be willing, out of our love for the Lord, to do so, to give all our cares unto Him.

Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.
1Peter 5:7


Bless you ....><>

Jesus is Lord

 

[Mayflower]

Hi Br. Bear,
thank you so much for your reply. This is a video that I will definitely keep watching and listening to. I’ve also spent the last few hours watching similar videos of worship songs and/or topics on Jesus to help keep my worrying thoughts from going out of control.

Regarding the problem - it is actually with an aunt, who also happens to be a devout Christian. That’s one of the things that I can’t wrap my head around…she is a Christian who‘s actions and words are not Christ-like. Honestly that’s one of the things that also hit me the most about this situation. I keep asking God why he‘s allowed her to keep attacking me for years, even though I have always been good to her. I keep asking why are there no consequences for her actions that are only intended to create discord. I ask where is the justice. It’s like a never ending nightmare with a few breaks here and there. Despite all this, I have always, ALWAYS found it in me to forgive her each time, no matter how vile she has been toward me. And the most recent incident hit me like a ton of bricks, even though I already knew it would be a matter of time before she did something again.

All of this mixed in with my severe anxiety is sometimes too much for me to handle. Sometimes I want to lay in bed, hoping that I fall asleep and not wake up.

I just want Jesus to finally relieve me of this pain.

Will remember your aunt too. I'm not sure if you are a girl or boy, but just want to say a prayer for you.

Father, thank you for AwesomeJC. Please bless him and watch over him. Thank you that You have not given him a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. Please bring him peace of mind tonight and calm any anxiety/depression he has. Continue to be with Him during the day and bring scriptures to His mind and heart that will strengthen his faith and remind him of Your love for him. I also pray for his aunt and that relationship. I pray that if she is Your child, that she will be convicted of any words and actions that reflect You poorly. Please bring reconciliation to the relationship where needed and cut off any unhealthy relationships that are needed. Thank You for Your deep love and please comfort him tonight. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Have a nice night. Better try to get some more sleep here. Haha.

 

[Br. Bear]

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusteth in Thee.
Isaiah 26:3

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in Thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.
Psalm 19:14

 

[AwesomeJC]

Br. Bear and Mayflower,
I truly want to thank you both for taking the time to read through my comments and problems. Your words of wisdom, prayers, scriptures, and suggestions are really comforting right now.

And I 100% agree about giving ownership of my anxiety to the lord. It is what I want to do the most right now. I will keep trying and praying tonight.

God bless you both.

 

[AwesomeJC]

Please continue to keep me in your prayers. I look forward to sharing my testimony with this community when Jesus saves me.

 

[Mister]

 

[AwesomeJC]

Thank you for sharing Mister. I'm watching it now.

 

[Brad Huber]

Please continue to keep me in your prayers. I look forward to sharing my testimony with this community when Jesus saves me.

Glad to pray for you Awesome. There are many christians who are pious but have little love in their hearts. Something you can do is first give yourself to Jesus, ask Him to forgive you of your sins, and to set you on a new path to become like Him, He will give you strength when you have none yourself, when you ask Him. As for your aunt, pray that God would bless her with a heart that can love. When you pray good prayers for those who persecute you, it brings greater power of the Lord into the situation, for the Lord indeed wants us all to love each other just as you say. Dont wait on this, begin the healing you need, both for you and your aunt.

 

[AwesomeJC]

Glad to pray for you Awesome. There are many christians who are pious but have little love in their hearts. Something you can do is first give yourself to Jesus, ask Him to forgive you of your sins, and to set you on a new path to become like Him, He will give you strength when you have none yourself, when you ask Him. As for your aunt, pray that God would bless her with a heart that can love. When you pray good prayers for those who persecute you, it brings greater power of the Lord into the situation, for the Lord indeed wants us all to love each other just as you say. Dont wait on this, begin the healing you need, both for you and your aunt.

Thanks Brad. I really appreciate your words and prayer in this difficult time.

In my conversations with Jesus, I told him that I've forgiven her again. I've asked Him to bless her and touch her heart and soul so that she can let go of whatever Ill will she has toward me. I still don't understand the reason or why she's doing what she's doing, I really don't. But I'm willing to forgive and move forward, not look back. I just hope for the truth to be revealed and that there is healing all around, and a good relationship.

I've also asked him to take ownership of my anxiety. I admit it is extremely difficult for me and the anxiety can hit me hard at different times of the day but I keep on praying and keep my eyes towards Jesus.