Pleasee help.

[poohbear1410]

Hey guys, I don’t know if any of you believe in God on here or are Christians, but I really need some help. So I’ve been working so hard on this Health Science degree for YEARS. I finished my Associate’s and before I went on to my Bachelor’s I asked God if there was another direction he wanted me to go. He continued to lead me down the Health Science degree path. Everything fell into place with this degree and I felt at complete peace and ease. It felt like a HUGE weight was lifted off my shoulders. I continued on and had great teachers. Some things happened and I had to take off. I went back all excited and ready to finish, but in July 2019, I started getting all of this anxiety and it felt like I wasn’t going for the right degree and I didn’t know what to do. My mind felt like I had to choose so many different degrees that I had never thought about ever doing, I was distraught because I was like “God, I have about 11 classes left now, why would you make me go for something else that’s going to take me way longer?” I had a mental breakdown and didn’t know what to do. In the Fall, I decided on taking an Upper level Health Science class and a Upper level Psychology class and my anxiety was so bad. It felt like I shouldn’t be in those classes, like I took the wrong classes. I was so upset because I was so excited about these classes. And it felt like I was getting pulled toward Psychology so I was confused and heart broken. I had to take an incomplete on the classes, but managed to get through them. I ended up taking about two blocks off. (Our courses are 7 weeks long and are called blocks). I went back in the second block of Spring and took a Sociology class. I was so happy around this time because I was doing a regimen and that stupid anxiety disappeared. I finally decided that I was going to do Health Sciences and finish since I was now 8 classes away from finishing and it wouldn’t make sense to do another degree. Plus while I was doing this class, I missed Health Science severely. I ended up taking off the first block of Summer. I picked two classes for Summer 2 because my chairman wanted me to take an elective and an Upper level class for my degree. I was so excited. Then the anxiety came back of making me feel that I wasn’t doing the right degree or taking the right classes and it wouldn’t go away. I just kept saying it’s my anxiety and kept trying to power through. I prayed and prayed and prayed. Asking God to help me, to clear my mind, to guide me. I kept asking for advice and everyone told me to finish this degree. Even my counselor. I came to my parents and they told me that it would be pointless to do another degree because I have 8 classes left on this degree and if I jumped ship to either a Behavioral Science degree or a Psychology degree, it would be about 12 classes. My dad said that God wouldn't have guided me on this journey this far if he hadn't intended for me to finish. I had so much anxiety I was crying because I didn’t know what to do and was thinking about switching my classes. My dad prayed and I thought that I would feel better. I still have not felt better. I’ve been pushing and pushing. I haven't done any of my work yet because I feel so bad. I just want my passion for this Health Science degree to come back…I want to cry so hard because I’m so close. I’m so depressed and I feel so sick. I keep praying, but it feels like God isn’t there…I’m in so much pain. My mom and dad said if I switch it’s going to take me so long because I can’t handle a lot of classes at once. Which is completely true. They know I would stress about having to take more time and just wanting to be done because of all the setbacks I keep enduring...My heart hurts so bad…

 

[Andyindauk]

Hi Pooh, there's a few in here that I suspect might be Christians other are showing definite symptoms!

Seriously though, reading your post I'll give you a few of my thoughts. I'm assuming that there's nothing wrong with your mental health and that when you say you're depressed what you really mean is that you're fed up as opposed to clinically depressed. If you have any doubts, well worth getting checked out.

Maybe I'm wrong but are you not trying to be God in your life? You seem to be wanting to have a roadmap of the whole of your life, everything mapped out in intricate detail. If that's the case that's not your job, God did that light years ago, before Adam sinned, before even creation.

Another impression I get is that maybe you need to re-jig your priorities. God created you to love, worship and adore Him and fulfil His will. He did not create you to get a degree in anything, that's just a means to an end, the end being to fulfil His will in your life. But your number one priority has to be love, worship and adore Him. Jesus was asked which is the most important commandment and that's what He said Matthew 22:33-40.

I promise you Pooh, God does not want you pacing up and down your room, stressing about your long term plans. I found out a long time ago not to even bother making long term plans, do not set yourself goals and objectives, by doing so you're piling on unnecessary pressure to yourself and actually deflecting God's will which will cause you some anguish because you'll feel a bit like you're in a canoe without a paddle. Ignore your life coach, instead like the TV evangelists tell you, 'Let go and let God.' Otherwise you'll not experience the peace that Jesus promised you John 14:26-27 . You're not equipped to make long term plans, that's God's role, have the faith to leave that with Him and just follow His plans for you.

So to answer your question as to which degree course you should follow, you're already on one that you say God put you on. God doesn't change His mind, so if you're struggling on it, take that as a signal you need to approach it differently rather than God's change of plan. Speak to your tutor, see what other online support there is but more than that, pray about it. Unlike other faiths we have a God that loves each of us with a perfect love that has no limits, cares about us and is in total control of everything. Don't believe me? Read Romans 8:28 .

 

[poohbear1410]

@Andyindauk Thank you for your reply! Yes, I do actually have mental health issues. I just got diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disorder over a year ago. That's why I was saying that it’s hard distinguish between thoughts that are just unneeded chatter or if it's real. I’m just trying to help people and help change the world. I also haven't set long term goals for myself in a while because I know things don't always go as planned. It was expressed to me that I need to finish school ASAP because when I turn 26 I won't have health insurance and that's scary so I'm trying to finish school in order to get a job that provides that. But I want to be able to do a job that I am passionate about in the long run. As long as I'm happy and helping people, that’s all that matters to me.

 

[Brother-Paul]

Greetings @poohbear1410

I have similar thoughts and feelings to Andy, I say this in love, I also feel you are putting a lot on your plate at times and you are trying to control your way through it, instead of coming to God, through Jesus Christ our Lord, all authority in heaven and on earth has been given to Him, and no one comes to the Father except through him.

We live in a fast paced time in history sister, the pressure to learn, to succeed, to get degrees, etc. is built into the education system. It is like a drug, we have to achieve, we are to make our own decisions, what we do is put ourself on the throne of our life, not God. Stress created more stress, which created depression, it is hard to balance the decision, that is a perfect sign, you need to give everything to God, through Jesus who is the intercessor of all prayers.

Trust in the Lord sister, give everything to Him in prayer, let go off your issues

Jesus says...

Matthew 11:28-30 (NKJV)
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.

Jesus wants you to come to him, give him your worries, your fears, give him it all, he asks you to, he wants you to, he wants to help you you just have to give everything to him and let him.

Read this Poohbear, pray it, Jesus wants to help you, but we have to submit and let him.

Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.

Bless you sister

Please do keep in touch sister.

To reply to your first statement, there are 'a lot' of true Christians on here, born again Christians, we care about YOU, your hurts and your situation. You are not alone in your dilemma, the world system pushes us to breaking point, but God is not like the world, He is always there for us, always waiting for us to call for His help.

Read the two scriptures above again, then pray to God through Jesus, give everything to Him in prayer and ask him to help you. Pour your heart out to Him, He loves you, we do too.

In His love

brother-paul

 

[dellyman]

doesn't matter anymore, back in UK... got a restraining order... yeah i know, clever, gutted... i wanted eviction notice... oh well, such is life eh.... God bless you all

 

[Brad Huber]

doesn't matter anymore, back in UK... got a restraining order... yeah i know, clever, gutted... i wanted eviction notice... oh well, such is life eh.... God bless you all

Are you Poohbear?

 

[dellyman]

no sorry i posted in wrong place... i don't know any more... wish could just delete every thing.... erm.. anyway never mind.... just rather go home in a way... can ead in to that what you like.... anyway God bless...