The one thing that you may want to keep in mind is that, at the cross, all of the sins you would ever commit in your life, past, present and future, have already been paid for in full. The work of the cross is a complete work. A finished work. That is what grace is. It is "RESTING" in the finished work of Christ. I would submit that maybe it is time for you to rest in that finished work. God is never surprised by the things that we do and say. He knows all of it, and still looks at us through the Love of that finished work. Don't allow the enemy to get you all worked up about something that has already been forgiven. That finished work allows his children to come boldly before him in our times of need. Not in condemnation, but in faith. Condemnation makes us afraid to come before him, as if that finished word was not enough to take care of our dirty laundry.
Your father knows exactly where you are and exactly what you need. Be of good comfort. whatever you need has already be supplied.
In Romans 6:14 - For sin shall not have dominion over you: for ye are not under the law, but under grace.
Rest I say therefore, Rest.