I just want to praise Jesus and God today.
Three weeks ago I was in a mess spiritually and emotionally. Yes I was a Christian but was living without confidence, bound by sin and shame and living under the accusations and shadows of the past.
Then that Sunday the speaker talked about shame and guilt and saying we didnt have to live that way. I don't usually go forward for altarcalls but went forward this time and focussed on God at the back of the line of people needing prayer (I was like the woman wanting to touch the hem of Jesus' garment). I returned to my seat or should I say I staggered focussing on the cross on the wall and felt cords around me , like someone tied up in a Western. I prayed to God and they loosened.
In the week I opened up to a deacon in the church and talked many things over with them and we prayed, etc and started to move forward from the past....I still wasnt totally free.
Next Sunday the same deacon I spoke to was speaking and they spoke on the truth setting you free. She offered an appeal and I dashed forward, no hiding this time as I knew I needed another touch from God. She laid hands on me to let the past go and I felt God's annointing for 40 minutes until I left the building.
Granted I then had to overcome mental barriers and physical shyness but now I face the fear and do it anyway but only in God's strength.
Now I have had two couples round my place (I was too shy to ask anyone before), I have agreed to help out with the overhead projector, got two mobile numbers from church friends and plan to meet one of them after Easter, I have joined an evangelistic alpha group to help out and also met a new online friend who have given me useful tips on self-worth and confidence.
I give God the glory about all of this \O/ and wanted to share it with you all.
God bless, Biggie
Three weeks ago I was in a mess spiritually and emotionally. Yes I was a Christian but was living without confidence, bound by sin and shame and living under the accusations and shadows of the past.
Then that Sunday the speaker talked about shame and guilt and saying we didnt have to live that way. I don't usually go forward for altarcalls but went forward this time and focussed on God at the back of the line of people needing prayer (I was like the woman wanting to touch the hem of Jesus' garment). I returned to my seat or should I say I staggered focussing on the cross on the wall and felt cords around me , like someone tied up in a Western. I prayed to God and they loosened.
In the week I opened up to a deacon in the church and talked many things over with them and we prayed, etc and started to move forward from the past....I still wasnt totally free.
Next Sunday the same deacon I spoke to was speaking and they spoke on the truth setting you free. She offered an appeal and I dashed forward, no hiding this time as I knew I needed another touch from God. She laid hands on me to let the past go and I felt God's annointing for 40 minutes until I left the building.
Granted I then had to overcome mental barriers and physical shyness but now I face the fear and do it anyway but only in God's strength.
Now I have had two couples round my place (I was too shy to ask anyone before), I have agreed to help out with the overhead projector, got two mobile numbers from church friends and plan to meet one of them after Easter, I have joined an evangelistic alpha group to help out and also met a new online friend who have given me useful tips on self-worth and confidence.
I give God the glory about all of this \O/ and wanted to share it with you all.
God bless, Biggie
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