I have been watching for a few years, strange things and hardship has been coming upon God’s true children. I mean mentally, spiritually, naturally, emotionally, it is like at the same time, driving us so much closer to GOD, tearing us away from the world, but no where to go but Him. And especially from that “institutionalised church “ in which the veil has been completely remove for we truly see it as it is. Not only does it seems that GOD is not merely separating us from that system but ripping us from it. Many years ago I Went though “The dark night of the soul” was there about 2 to 3 years. I never could dream a christians could go throw such darkness and agonizing and stress. Could not even pray. All the time through it, I was talking to GOD and He was talking back , by I could not pray, one day I was walking on a path through the woods crying, tears running down my face. I heard a voice asking me, why are you crying? I replied, what do you mean why I’m I crying, don’t you see this trouble that I am in. The voice said: “WHAT TROUBLE” I said: this mess I have gotten myself into, The voice said: WHAT MESS? I said: this mess, and you cannot get me out of this mess. The voice says: That’s no problem for me! Then I said: HOW can you get me out of this mess? The voice I heard , as clear as day it said: “ BECAUSE I. AM GOD”!
Then at that moment I came to myself and realise. I was having a conversation with MY FATHER”. That happen years ago! After that I could take anything ! That’s what I thought! Until 3 years ago, sailing full of the Holy Ghost, my mind keen as a whistle, i would burn my mind out in biblical study’s, Roman History’s , force my self into deep deep studies, “ then I had something similar to what they call a “beatific vision” mind you I said “similar”. I could not take the joy and the presence of the anointing and vision. And when I came out I thought I had lost my mind. But I was sound but my physical mind was not, I just kept quiet. Things of the world and worldly friends I got away from them! I thought I was separate from the world, God separated me! 99 1/2 will not do! I hope some this will help you in someway. He was telling me to come out from among them. My mental mind was chaos, but my spiritual mind was intact. I throw out of my mind all the things in the world, nothing matter just “Jesus” things of the world bye bye! What ever it takes to bring you closer to Him, He is going to do it, why because He “LOVES” You!
He’s your Father.
AW Tozer:
It is doubtful whether God can bless a man greatly until He has hurt him deeply.