I will hopefully make a part 2 if this goes well enough that will be on a different subject.
Sometimes I find myself asking: Am I a christian? It makes you try and think back to when you were saved, and if being in a christian family means you are saved already. You go away and try and pray about, to ask god to give you strength and know you need to be saved, but god not answering after so many times of asking makes you more confused and desperate. You carry on praying, but it becomes a routine and it looses meaning. Sometimes it happens with praise as well untill you only sometimes actually "feel" towards god. You carry on praying but it doesn't work and you begin to have anxieties. What if I'm not supposed to go to heaven? But all can be freed. Well what if I never am? And the argument with your soul continues untill your completely confused and feel as if you want to take out the confusing knot of knowledge from your head and start fresh. You have stages where you are closer to god and feel saved and other times when you are hanging on to your faith by the finger tips.
This is what it feel like, and sorry if it sounds confusing but it feels like that too. Could you please pray for me and also tell me if you know what I'm talking about. Feedback would be even better.
Thanks, Jonah:baffle:
Sometimes I find myself asking: Am I a christian? It makes you try and think back to when you were saved, and if being in a christian family means you are saved already. You go away and try and pray about, to ask god to give you strength and know you need to be saved, but god not answering after so many times of asking makes you more confused and desperate. You carry on praying, but it becomes a routine and it looses meaning. Sometimes it happens with praise as well untill you only sometimes actually "feel" towards god. You carry on praying but it doesn't work and you begin to have anxieties. What if I'm not supposed to go to heaven? But all can be freed. Well what if I never am? And the argument with your soul continues untill your completely confused and feel as if you want to take out the confusing knot of knowledge from your head and start fresh. You have stages where you are closer to god and feel saved and other times when you are hanging on to your faith by the finger tips.
This is what it feel like, and sorry if it sounds confusing but it feels like that too. Could you please pray for me and also tell me if you know what I'm talking about. Feedback would be even better.
Thanks, Jonah:baffle: