scared, lonely, struggling

[Yeshualives]

I had voices a while back - abusive. I had stopped taking medication as I thought I was healed. It started with not so bad voices and then i had a deliverance of a spirit of rejection and within a few days I had much worse voices. I ended up taking an overdose, winding up in hospital and then getting a lot more attention from the mental health team.
I was still wobbly so I spent another week in hospital where I met a kind chaplain who I began to talk to.

I'm worried about what happened. I can't 'feel' the Holy Spirit like i used to be able to. I'm scared that I never seem to have effectively witnessed to anyone or been really fruitful. I feel so flat, I haven't been able to hear God's voice lately.

The chaplain explained that the abusive voices were probably from part of my mind from the past - as someone was verbally abusive to me when I was growing up. I'm worried i've been verbally abusive to God.

I feel this is really serious. I'm really concerned. I know that Jesus is the Son of God. However, i'm struggling with my faith. I'm scared of people around me, people I love and have witnessed to but to no avail, i'm scared of them not making it to heaven. I think of all the people who won't make it. I don't understand.

I am sorry that I have posted before and been struggling - it seems as if i haven't really been together for longer than a couple of weeks at a time.

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Dear Yeshualives

May God bless you with his peace and comfort sister. Please try to remember, no matter how low you feel , that the Lord loves you and He is always there for you.

The Eternal God is Thy refuge and underneath are the Everlasting Arms
Deut 33:27

I will pray that the Lord gives you a real sense of His presence and His love in Your heart. The rich love of Jesus that chases away all doubts and fears.

Sometimes it is so easy to rely on our destructive and frail human feelings which can be so overwhelming and powerful. Try instead to trust in the eternal promises of the Lord.

I will never leave thee nor forsake thee Hebrews 13:5

Kept by the power of God unto salvation 1 Peter 1:5

I will pray that the Lord, who is able to heal all our afflictions and diseases, will touch your mind with His healing power.... That you will be relieved of these troublesome voices and that the Lord will deliver you from any further self-destructive behaviour.

I have heard your prayer. I have seen your tears; surely I will heal you 2 Kings 20:5

May the Lord bless you...I am praying for you

Julia

 

[HisFollower]

response to Scared, Lonely, Struggling

Scared= Ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God. Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.

Lonely= Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for He hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. So that we may bodly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.

Struggling= I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. And ye now therefore have sorrow: but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.

 

[eliazar.orta]

I had voices a while back - abusive. I had stopped taking medication as I thought I was healed. It started with not so bad voices and then i had a deliverance of a spirit of rejection and within a few days I had much worse voices. I ended up taking an overdose, winding up in hospital and then getting a lot more attention from the mental health team.
I was still wobbly so I spent another week in hospital where I met a kind chaplain who I began to talk to.

I'm worried about what happened. I can't 'feel' the Holy Spirit like i used to be able to. I'm scared that I never seem to have effectively witnessed to anyone or been really fruitful. I feel so flat, I haven't been able to hear God's voice lately.

The chaplain explained that the abusive voices were probably from part of my mind from the past - as someone was verbally abusive to me when I was growing up. I'm worried i've been verbally abusive to God.

I feel this is really serious. I'm really concerned. I know that Jesus is the Son of God. However, i'm struggling with my faith. I'm scared of people around me, people I love and have witnessed to but to no avail, i'm scared of them not making it to heaven. I think of all the people who won't make it. I don't understand.

I am sorry that I have posted before and been struggling - it seems as if i haven't really been together for longer than a couple of weeks at a time.

Hey, I know I´m 12 years late. But he´s there, always. One bit of advice that changed me was ¨Stop focusing on emotions and just let go. ¨

 

[FullArmorofGod]

I had voices a while back - abusive. I had stopped taking medication as I thought I was healed. It started with not so bad voices and then i had a deliverance of a spirit of rejection and within a few days I had much worse voices. I ended up taking an overdose, winding up in hospital and then getting a lot more attention from the mental health team.
I was still wobbly so I spent another week in hospital where I met a kind chaplain who I began to talk to.

I'm worried about what happened. I can't 'feel' the Holy Spirit like i used to be able to. I'm scared that I never seem to have effectively witnessed to anyone or been really fruitful. I feel so flat, I haven't been able to hear God's voice lately.

The chaplain explained that the abusive voices were probably from part of my mind from the past - as someone was verbally abusive to me when I was growing up. I'm worried i've been verbally abusive to God.

I feel this is really serious. I'm really concerned. I know that Jesus is the Son of God. However, i'm struggling with my faith. I'm scared of people around me, people I love and have witnessed to but to no avail, i'm scared of them not making it to heaven. I think of all the people who won't make it. I don't understand.

I am sorry that I have posted before and been struggling - it seems as if i haven't really been together for longer than a couple of weeks at a time.

The struggling of the faith is like the Ying yang symbol as is our life. We're all walking through the snake line between chaos and order.

Do your best. I might not make it to heaven but Christ died for our sins. All we have to do is believe.