So honestly im scared of everything that is going to happen. Is that normal? Im afraid because of how soon it may be. I dont really know HOW soon it is but alot of people say soon. I just want to work on my relationship with Jesus so that i know im safe. I just dont know what to do.
Fear comes. That is a fact. Satan uses fear every time you think of moving out into the realm of faith. He tries to twist the rules of faith
so that your faith is not in God and His omnipotence, omniscience and omnipresence, but that you put your
focus and your faith in the circumstances or your own abilities.
If Satan can accomplish that, then you are going to find yourself experiencing doubt, unbelief and fear. So,
in every situation begin the day with a meditation of the grandeur and the power of the Creator of the
Universe. Then confess that: “Greater is He in me, than he that is in the world and then God has not given
me the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. My God is a good God and He loves me. If the
devil can’t steal my joy, he can’t get my goods/my money. I have the mind of Christ and the Wisdom of
God. I hear the voice of my Father and the voice of a stranger, I can’t even hear. Holy Spirit, guide me
into all truth. I am a tither and I give to every good work. I call on my covenant.”
As a trader in the commodity pits, I would start every day with this focus and discipline. Do you know that
even after praying like this, there were times when fear would grip me? At some point in almost every
trading day, I would get confused and lose my count and not know where I was and fear would come in.
The market would be moving and I didn’t even know whether I was long or short the market. Sometimes, I
wouldn’t even know where the market was trading. The fear would sometimes get so strong that it was
almost impossible to assess my position without getting far from the fray. (This could be very costly as the
further away I got, the longer it would take to get back once I figured out how I was positioned. Every
second mattered.)
At other times, opportunities would present themselves that were so huge that just the size of the
opportunity caused me to shiver. This kind of fear is easily remedied by trying to seize that
trade/opportunity in small bites. Still, when I would be presented with the opportunity I could feel that old
familiar adversary trying to cause a stoppage of the thinking process. As I would come upon this kind of
fear, more and more over the years my bites would get larger and my capacity for risk would increase and
the fear that would accompany it could be readily, if not easily, managed. Still the fear would come.
The Greater One lives on the inside of you. The adversary does not live inside of you. Faith comes from
Him, if you have His faith. Therefore, faith is bubbled up from within. Fear grips you from the outside. It
has to be resisted. It isn’t natural to you. You can keep it out. But you will never keep it out if you allow
it to surprise you. You must know that fear will attack, every time you step out of your comfort zone to do
great exploits for God. Brace yourself, but jump anyway. Act on the faith, but know that Satan will throw
doubt, unbelief and fear at you in the middle of your jump.
Kevin Costner did a movie a few years back that I saw. He was a baseball pitcher in the waning years of
his career. He was pitching in Yankee Stadium in front of 55,000 screaming fans. He wasn’t a Yankee, so
they weren’t cheering him. As the game wore on, so did the pain in his arm and the fear that he wouldn’t
be able to throw one more successful pitch. What did he do?
First, he tuned out the things that were not important. That included the coaches and the players in the
dugout. Next, he tuned out the runners on base and his teammates. And finally, he tuned out the batter and
even the umpire. All that was left was that catcher and his target. He was a kid again, playing catch. He
was back to the fundamentals and back to the days when pitching was fun. The pain was still there, but his
mind was on the target and not on the pain. And he began to hit the target.
A fastball fading, smack hit the target. “Strike One.” A curve ball breaks in toward the hitter, moving him
off the plate. Thud, the ball hits the target. “Ball,” the umpire grunts. Another curve ball starts way outside,
but curves hard to catch the outside corner of the plate. “Strike two.” He was just playing catch. And as
the batter inched back on top of the plate, Costner knew just what to do. So did the catcher. He ran a fast
ball in on the hands, just over the inside corner of the plate. “Steeeerike three. Batter, you’re out.” The
crowd was silenced. As the next batter came up, the process began again.
Are you capable of this kind of concentration? You might not be today, but you could be if you understood
how valuable it is. Satan is trying to steal from you, kill you and destroy everything valuable that you do.
He is doing it with disease and distraction. You need to shut him out and pay close attention to that voice
that lives inside every New Creation.
My friends in trading used to make fun of me because every time I entered the trading pits I would enter a
level of concentration they would call “the zone”. They would try to get my attention, and sometimes
would even play tricks on me for their enjoyment. Occasionally, they would get me to smirk and we would
all have a good laugh. Still, my life in the pits was a war for the Kingdom and I took it very seriously. I was
there to extract spoils to see that the gospel would be preached. Like Costner, I would shut the world out and get right down to the basics. I would hear the market, see the players and watch the movement and as I
did, I would know what to do. I also knew that every time I would move, Satan would parry with fear.
But knowing that fear was coming allowed me to stay balanced. He could never catch me off guard. Buy 100, rush of emotion. Take a breath, lay off the trade. There’s the bid hit the bid. Sold 50 there, and 50 there. Sell 200, rush of emotion. Fear was telling me that the market was going to run against me. Take a deep breath, there’s the offer, lift the offer. Take a deep breath. Stay in rhythm. Write carefully. Record the trade accurately. Sell another 100. Where’s the market? Here comes the fear. Breathe. Listen. See the offer, lift the offer. No surprise there. Another successful trade.
This is where I would allow the smirk. Satan, you’re such a loser.
Fear comes from without, but you are bigger than that fear. The only way it can beat you is if you don’t make it part of the dance. If you deny its existence, you will be off balance whenever it shows up. And remember, it doesn’t always look the same. Fear looks like doubt. It feels like unbelief and lack of confidence. It can even feel like weakness where you will be intimidated. It’s all from the same sorry source.
Don’t be fooled or lulled into thinking that he will ever stop trying to harass you. As long as you are doing anything for the kingdom, fear will be on the scene. Just hone your concentration back to the basics and cast it out. You have the authority and the ability to do so. Start doing it and you will have a long and successful life and career.