Hello, i'm 23 years old and have always been pretty happy. I was raised in the church and I love The Lord. Now i'm at a crazy transition point in my life and i don't know what to make of it. My mother and sister moved from michigan to nc last summer. I was still in school and didn't want to relocate so far away just yet. I ended up moving to NC last month because i was dealing with some problems back in michigan. However, i did not want to leave michigan. I was planning on moving back to my home town in michigan to finish school and to be with my boyfriend (it's been a rocky relationship, but not all bad). But i started having panic attacks and they scared me, so i came to NC to seek comfort from my mother. But as soon as I got here, i started having overwhelming thoughts of death and thoughts that I was going to die soon. The panick attacks got worse and more frequent. I lost weight cause i couldnt eat and i felt sick all the time. I was diagnosed for being depressed. I started reading this book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer and it's helped me a lot, and i've been seeing a therapist. i don't feel AS overwhelmed anymore, and my health is good. But I still keep having these thoughts of dying and death. While at the same time, i'm trying to decide if i'm going to stay here in NC or go back to michigan. I feel like God's trying to tell me to stay here, but at the same time, I miss what used to be home for me SO much. I miss my boyfriend, my church family and my friends. I miss the life that i used to have. But i can't ignore this tuggin in my spirit telling me to stay here. I wonder if i'm REALLY hearing from God, or if i'm just making things harder for myself by thinking that he wants me to stay here. AND i'm having a hard time shaking these thoughts of death. My thoughts scare me, and I don't know what it's all about. Am i dealing with spiritual warfare? I wish i was clear on what's going on in my mind and spirit...I just need some kind of clarity. Any input would be helpful. Thank you!
ps. sorry it's so long.
ps. sorry it's so long.
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