Ever since a certain man told me about 18 months ago that part of my mind is trapped inside my ex's... And part of her mind is trapped inside mine... I have had some rather life changing experiences which unfortunately cannot be proven. Others can see the personal changes in me, but, where is the evidence? Well I finally have some, circumstantial as it is.
About 3 months ago i complained to God that I have no one to talk to about various matters. And of course I heard back "you can talk to me". So I did. And got some information that i had never considered before... Which was that there are multiple pieces of my ex's mind, each with their own independent ability to influence me.
For a decade I've had a gut feeling that she is afraid of me. And for the first time in a decade rather than just assuming it's my own subconscious.. I spoke to that fear, and confronted it's foundations, tearing them down.
I do not expect the reader to believe this... But 2 weeks later one of my ex's many other ex boyfriends... Confronted my brother about our failed relationship.
He and my brother have known each other for 6 years now, turns out he thought my brother was me the whole time!
The details are, I guess, funny in that they paint him as a weak man.. and my brother handled the situation rather well.
I can't go into details for obvious reasons but it's rather clear from what was missing in the list of complaints her ex told my brother, that my ex is on the dissociative spectrum. In fact it's possible he had my brother confused with me because she didn't remember my name, 3 years later when she met him.
Yeah, sounds crazy. But a decade ago she seriously suggested we had met in a past life.
Turns out that past life was our childhood, I'm just not allowed to remember it yet.
Anyhow afterwards I was definitely tempted to go talk to him with the intention of using him as an intermidiary to have a conversation with her, but that is probably a very bad idea.
Equally bad idea would be to go talk to the witch who allegedly rescued her out of her abusive household, about 3 decades ago now.
But I do want to reconcile, just can't force it on my own timeline....
And it may not be God's will that we do.
About 3 months ago i complained to God that I have no one to talk to about various matters. And of course I heard back "you can talk to me". So I did. And got some information that i had never considered before... Which was that there are multiple pieces of my ex's mind, each with their own independent ability to influence me.
For a decade I've had a gut feeling that she is afraid of me. And for the first time in a decade rather than just assuming it's my own subconscious.. I spoke to that fear, and confronted it's foundations, tearing them down.
I do not expect the reader to believe this... But 2 weeks later one of my ex's many other ex boyfriends... Confronted my brother about our failed relationship.
He and my brother have known each other for 6 years now, turns out he thought my brother was me the whole time!
The details are, I guess, funny in that they paint him as a weak man.. and my brother handled the situation rather well.
I can't go into details for obvious reasons but it's rather clear from what was missing in the list of complaints her ex told my brother, that my ex is on the dissociative spectrum. In fact it's possible he had my brother confused with me because she didn't remember my name, 3 years later when she met him.
Yeah, sounds crazy. But a decade ago she seriously suggested we had met in a past life.
Turns out that past life was our childhood, I'm just not allowed to remember it yet.
Anyhow afterwards I was definitely tempted to go talk to him with the intention of using him as an intermidiary to have a conversation with her, but that is probably a very bad idea.
Equally bad idea would be to go talk to the witch who allegedly rescued her out of her abusive household, about 3 decades ago now.
But I do want to reconcile, just can't force it on my own timeline....
And it may not be God's will that we do.
