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[Yeshualives]

Not sure where to begin as i've posted on here quite a few times before. I have had an awful night - and it seems like every thought I've had has been awful - different voices - and when i've tried to think something myself i've heard the voices reply to my thoughts.

Before this happened I prayed a foolish prayer which I am scared to share. Before this I spent the day eating till i felt sick - i realise this was stupid but I was in a low negative mood - not a good reason I know.

Before I went to bed I read an article that said if you continue sinning in an area then you are not really born again. Because if you are born again then you desire holiness.

I know we are meant to examine ourselves and that we are meant to bear good fruit. I know there was a time when I was doing okay. But now I am not.

I feel paralysed. I can't do anything. I seem to struggle over things that other people have sorted.

What do these voices mean? If they can hear my thoughts?

I've recently left my church because of things that were happening that I was wary of. I began to be concerned about gold dust that was appearing, and people being 'drunk in the spirit' and things like that.

Since then I visited a little church where the people are very kind but they are cessationists and do not believe the gifts of the Spirit are for today.

I am concerned that i'm heading for a breakdown.

Sorry I know this is a bit garbled.

 

[Boanerges]

Not sure where to begin as i've posted on here quite a few times before. I have had an awful night - and it seems like every thought I've had has been awful - different voices - and when i've tried to think something myself i've heard the voices reply to my thoughts.

Before this happened I prayed a foolish prayer which I am scared to share. Before this I spent the day eating till i felt sick - i realise this was stupid but I was in a low negative mood - not a good reason I know.

Before I went to bed I read an article that said if you continue sinning in an area then you are not really born again. Because if you are born again then you desire holiness.
There is no one without sin my friend. As we draw closer to the Master and deeper into His Word we sin less and less but no one is perfect in their walk but Christ Himself.
I know we are meant to examine ourselves and that we are meant to bear good fruit. I know there was a time when I was doing okay. But now I am not.
To examine oneself is a good thing and that should be done periodically but do not make that your focus. If you look at the problems all the time you will tend to get depressed and spiral down. Remember He came to walk sinless and pay the price because we could not.
I feel paralysed. I can't do anything. I seem to struggle over things that other people have sorted.
Jesus Himself said by your self you can do nothing but you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.
What do these voices mean? If they can hear my thoughts?
There are many voices in the world my friend. If you are having issues with voices I would recommend the following:
Contact a Pastor and get counseling.
Contact a medical Doctor and have your hormone levels checked, there can be many reasons and/or sources for this phenomenon.
I've recently left my church because of things that were happening that I was wary of. I began to be concerned about gold dust that was appearing, and people being 'drunk in the spirit' and things like that.
If you are not comfortable there perhaps it was time to move on.
Since then I visited a little church where the people are very kind but they are cessationists and do not believe the gifts of the Spirit are for today.
Is that what you believe? Seek God and see where He would have you attend.
I am concerned that i'm heading for a breakdown.
Do not worry, trust the Lord no matter where your journey leads, He works all for the good. Sometimes our path is unpleasant to say the least but we can trust Him and grow in our faith regardless of our situation.
Sorry I know this is a bit garbled.

You sound quite coherent. Let's pray;
Heavenly Father, we come to You in Jesus wonderful Name asking for peace and clarity in my sister's heart and mind. In Jesus Name we command those voices to be silent, fill her with Your peace, Your love and Your joy. Let my friend know that You are with her and that You will never leave her nor forsake her.
Thank you for hearing Father, thank You for answering,
gratefully we receive from You amen.

 

[Strypes]

You sound quite coherent. Let's pray;
Heavenly Father, we come to You in Jesus wonderful Name asking for peace and clarity in my sister's heart and mind. In Jesus Name we command those voices to be silent, fill her with Your peace, Your love and Your joy. Let my friend know that You are with her and that You will never leave her nor forsake her.
Thank you for hearing Father, thank You for answering,
gratefully we receive from You amen.

By His grace and mercy Amen

 

[sister]

Peace!

Peace Be Still!That came to me,or Be Still and Know that I Am God!Just continue to lay ALL your burdens down!You are Loved,my friend!Do you ever speak Gods Word over your life?Healing scriptures,knowing who you are in Christ,ones like that?You need that to know what God says about you,like"You are fearfully and wonderfully made",Im the head,not the tail!Im above,not beneath!Im loved and accepted in Christ!Those are very powerful to say everyday!The enemy tries to keep us in some sort of bondage,but,..knowing who and whose you are in Christ really helps!And about the gold dust and getting "drunk in the spirit",it is all real,my friend!The gold is for a few reasons:he is adorning his bride,theres lots of gold in heaven!another is it happens for healing,Ive had it on my hands,and face several times!I once asked the Lord and he said it is sometimes for the evidence of a healing ministry!I knew a woman who the Lord healed from liver cancer,and now she has a great healing ministry,and when worship starts,she gets covered with it,and then prays for the sick.Also a man named,Joshua Mills who is a worshipper too,gets it and oil too all over him when he worships,and then he gets word of knowledge when people are getting healed!So,its real my friend,dont be scared about it,and the getting drunk,its real,been there a few times myself,sometimes the Lord allows that especially when people have been going thru major stuff or hurts in their lives!Its one of the manifestations of the joy of the Lord!It really is quite fun!Some could be faking it,only God knows that!But it seems to me your church is in some sort of "Open Heaven"the Holy Spirit just gave me that word!So,dont fear it,flow with it!And remember too,Jesus has a sense of humor,he can be very "child-like"and likes giving his children different and "heavenly"surprises!GBU!!And I speak healing over you,and that spirit of "confusion"in you has got to go,in Jesus name!You have not been given a spirit of fear,but of love,power,and a sound mind,my friend!Stay close to Him,worsip when you get down,read his word and speak it over your life,and pray for wisdom and truth in all things!Seek ye first the kingdom of God,and all these things will be added unto you!God is Good,he loves you,you are "Precious to him"(he gave me that word for you too)"PRECIOUS",you are to him!So,thank him for all the things hes done in your life,and for the things hes about to do!!Shalom,my friend,Love,Sister!

 

[Yeshualives]

Thank you for your kind replies and prayers. I am calm now and have taken some tranquillisers, but am still quite low. I have hope for further breakthrough though because on searching the internet I came across a gentleman in America who is an intercessor for people who have this type of oppression and I made contact with him and he is willing to help.

I could end up with sky high phone bills though!

Dear sister, I was a bit tearful after reading your post - did you really hear the Lord say those words because I so needed to hear them?

And Boanerges thank you for your calm reply which made sense - which is why i've just taken a trip to the doctor. And thanks Strypes for agreeing in prayer.

Thank You Jesus for the talkJesus forum! I have been helped so much here, especially when i've not known who to turn to - thanks again to everyone,

God bless,

Rachel

 

[sister]

Love!

Yes,sweet sister,he did say that,see he knew you needed that!You are PRECIOUS to him!He loves you so...know that his word is true!He sings over you!Read Zep3:17!!You are constantly on his mind,he is mindful of you Rachel!Everything that matters to you,matters to Him!!What ever your going thru,is not impossible for him to fix!If you are broken hearted,remember he is close to them,and he is the healer of broken hearts!He is the healer of all things!!Nothing is too great for our God!!Again,just stay close to him,and he will give you the desires of your heart!And instead of traquilizers hon,again read his word!He is the Prince of Peace!Speak His Word besides having that man praying for you!His Word is powerful,remember!!Sharper than any 2 edged sword!And our words are powerful!Speak his Word and positive things,it takes time,but it works!Ok,Hon in my Prayers!!Love,Sister!

 

[Yeshualives]

thank you

Thank you dear Sister - thank you so much for your love and support. Thank you Jesus.