Its all around me, everywhere, around everyone. Its for the taking, to trust upon with all our heart, mind and soul. Like God intended. Everything about this worldy system is keeping us from Christ.
But today I already feel the weakness inside me, I want to leave this world behind and go to the Kingdom. I dont want to rely on this world and its system any longer. But I do. My mind keeps on telling me its hard to switch from this system to trusting wholeheartedly in God. Christ tells me opposite. That it will comfort me, this too I see very clearly. I believe that it will comport me if I follow him completely.
So even though I trust that I was made for the only purpose to live within this Kingdom. I trust that God will provide for me. I totally trust my life will be filled with Love. More Love than I have ever felt, to a point that I believe I have never felt Love until I do this. I have complete Faith that I will connect to my Family on a totally different level if I leave this system behind. I have complete Faith in Christ and his ways.
But I feel that I will rely on this system until my dying day, and then regret my decision, for not living in the Kingdom as I was made to do.
Im not really confused.
Please help me brothers and sisters on this it feels very important inside me. If the spirit is upon me its asking me to share this with those who know Christ. Yet I feel so set in my way as though I dont need any help. I cannot shake this from my mind. I have been living there in imagination all day. I want it so much. I see it so clearly.
Im going to post it as it came out freely.
Thank You God Bless