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[findingmyway]

Hi all,
I haven't been on here since about December, and would first and foremost like to thank God for where I am right now in my life.
Previously, I was having problems, with drinking, going out, getting mixed up in bad situations, and watching pornography, but since new years, I have not been drunk once. I do not smoke anything, and I haven't been to a party nor have I watched porn.
I am in college for nursing, and I thank God everyday for the will power and strength to continue each day, it is definitely not each but ever so worth it.

I had also asked back in December for some help with a situation involving my dad, and some tumors that were found. This has not turned out well at all. He was admitted to hospital last week, and the cancer has spread from his brain and liver to bones, lungs and spine. His kidneys have now failed, and the doctors say he is palliative. This is so hard right now, I love my dad more than anything in this world, and although I know I am going to lose him, I do not want to.
If you could please pray for my dad and family, I would greatly appreciate it. I trust God so much and I am putting my faith in him, I just want my dad to be peaceful and comfortable, I don't want his suffering prolonged. Please, may God give him the strength to get through this, and know that we love him. He feels as a man he is failing our family, and that he is weak. But he is not. I just want him to understand that we love him, and we will not be parted for long.
Everyday I can't stop thinking about him and while at school I find it the hardest.

Thank you for reading, any comments or advice would be extremely appreciate. I praise God, I love him, and I trust him, but it is still hard.
Blessings everyone!
With Love, Jennifer

 

[Boanerges]

Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry for your troubles. I have stood in your shoes before and I know it to be no easy time. What was and is my greatest comfort is that my Dad excepted Christ as his Savior before getting promoted to heaven; truly we can never loose anything we trust into our heavenly Fathers hands. Every time sorrow came down on me my rejoicing went up as I thought about my Dad walking hand in hand with Jesus.
I am praying for your Dad for comfort and the peace that comes from knowing God's presence.
I am praying for you that the Father comforts your heart, His joy becomes your strength and that you see through spirit eyes. This life is just the start and the next is our great reward.
I am praying for your family that the peace of God may rule and reign in their hearts, that God is glorified in this situation and that many are touched for His kingdom through your lives.
Much love and many blessings in Jesus wonderful Name,
your brother Larry.

 

[findingmyway]

My dad ended up passing away Thursday, April 15, 2010 in the hospital. Me, my mother, sister, great aunt & uncle and cousin were there. It was very surreal and I refused to believe he was never going to come back. I felt the same way for the funeral up until now. Now it is hitting me harder than ever than he is truly gone. I don't know what to do with myself, I have been extremely depressed, irritable, worried, lazy, introverted and have been having anxiety. I do not want to feel this way any longer and wondered if anyone could possibly relate?
I do not want to see a doctor. Even if I try to go out, and do something I feel like I shouldn't be there, and when I come home I feel even worse. Like there is a million pound weight on me and it refuses for me to be happy. Any suggestions as how to get through this, I'm at a loss of ideas, and don't want to turn to the wrong things. I do not know what to say to God about it, but I want to. Everything seems so wrong I cannot put words to it. Please send some hope!
With blessings, Jennifer

 

[Boanerges]

My friend I am still praying for you.
I too saw my Dad pass away several years back. Every time I felt sorrow coming down in my heart the praises began to go up as I remembered that my Dad was now rejoicing in the presence of his God.
I still keep that attitude today, we never really loose anything that we trust into our heavenly Father's hand.
Many blessings in His wonderful Name,
brother Larry.