thanks for all the replies everyone.
I can't say I am much helped by scripture because I already know the verses you gave me but your prayers are also very welcome.
thanks again still , it just that I cant accept some verses for what they seem to be saying in context of grace. This is what causes me lot of confusion.
God bless everyone
Dear brother Jari,
This is really a time of struggle for you isn't?
So, is it Apostasy ( all out rejection of Jesus) or just doubting your salvation.
First you require scripture but, when you get scripture, you say your are not much helped by it! Welcome to the human race and that hideous word and sin called "doubt"! We all do it and if a person says they have total faith and NEVER doubt, they are in denial and lie to themselves. It takes perfection to be doubtless....none of us are quite there yet....lol!
And, I don't know you all that well but, enough and I have read your many forum threads, so I feel it is safe for me to say that your are definetly not an Apostate! You know me, rejection is akin to falling away and a symptom of never being saved in the first place!
So look up and smile. You are just going through a period of "dry bones" and a moment in the "valley", this will pass. But, do not doubt this, we all have many valleys in store for us.....I promise, you will come through this!.....
John 16:33 Jesus told His followers, “In the world you will have tribulation; but
be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
........and so will you!!!
I am going to go ahead and give you some scripyure that help me through my valleys.
St. Paul is such a great example:
The Apostle Paul was a great hero of the New Testament. If anybody should have received only good things in life, it would have been Paul. But listen to his testimony from 2 Corin 11:24-28:
24.
From the Jews five times I received forty stripes minus one.
25. Three times I was beaten with rods; once I was stoned; three times I was shipwrecked; a night and a day I have been in the deep;
26. in journeys often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils of my own countrymen, in perils of the Gentiles, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;
27. in weariness and toil, in sleeplessness often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness
Talk about struggles and valleys!!! and he was a great teacher chosen by God.
Here is another set of verse that I go back to often, again Paul, struggling with sin this time
<SUP>15</SUP>
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28093 class=versenum>16</SUP> And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28094 class=versenum>17</SUP> As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28095 class=versenum>18</SUP> I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.<SUP class=footnote value='[c]'>[c]</SUP> For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28096 class=versenum>19</SUP> For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28097 class=versenum>20</SUP> Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
<SUP id=en-NIV1984-28098 class=versenum>21</SUP> So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28099 class=versenum>22</SUP> For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28100 class=versenum>23</SUP> but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28101 class=versenum>24</SUP> What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? <SUP id=en-NIV1984-28102 class=versenum>25</SUP> Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! Roman 7: 15-25
And look how he followed up with the first verse in Romans 8:
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,<SUP class=footnote value='[a]'>[a</SUP>
And this was a man that wittnessed Jesus on the road to Amaeus and was literally struck blind by his presence!!
And then there was the man that Jesus said was the greatest man to have ever lived....John The Baptist! He spoke to God in the desert and recognized Jesus as the lamb that takes away the sins of the world. What a witness to doubt he is for us!
When John, knowing and seeing all he saw, near his end, as he awaited his for his beheading in jail, sent a messenger to Jesus and asked him if he was truly the Messiah!
So keep prayer, keep reading the Bible and keep looking up!
We are all in the same boat together and if one of us gets out, we will sink!!!