Tired of this old life

[sirfallsalot]

Hey everyone

Ok, first of all let me say that I have known of Jesus all my life and thought I had a pretty good hold on things, well I don't. I am so sick and tired of this wreck of a life I have lived, How can a wonderful and loving God even look my way after 49 years of running, hiding and failing Him so many times. I have tried to change this so many times, but every time I would fall in the worst way, I figured that The Lord has me herded in with the goats and there's no way out of that pen. The thing is I need Him, I just don't want to know of Him, I want to know Him and not take from His hand without holding that same hand FIRST.

I have never been angry with Him, no reason for it, these troubles I have are of my own choices. My heart aches for Him and I'm afraid because I know I will fall again and again, don't seem fair to Him. I try to strip away the untold layers of sin in my life but I am weak and so tired.

I want to be where He is, not a last second save, working serving, to please Him. I want to be able to lay my head on his feet and just stay that way forever. I don't want to think it's beyond that now, I had my chance and failed. I'm just not sure anymore.

 

[Faithful Son]

Your chance is still here brother.

I'm 24 years old. People liken me to an older man your age by the way I act and the fact that I am just so serious about everything. I've got a great sense of humour, I certainly do, that's a blessing, but the main thing to remember about myself, I'm not in control of my life.

Aha! That's great isn't it. God says, if we know Him in our ways, He will guide our paths.

I say this to you with a sort of jest. A sort of happy sense and feeling over me, but I know you aren't happy, I know I'm not really happy where I'm sitting.

Jesus said:
John 14:4
And where I go you know, and the way you know.

He is the way isn't He? He said:

John 14:6
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life.

Let Jesus then do the talking and walking in our lives my friend. It's hard, it's tough, it's not fun, but we need a lot of love

I have worked less in my life combined than you have brother, I'm sure of it. I know that after I run around each day and the sweat drips from my face and I feel like an absolute waste of a man, that I can come back and go to God and say, I'm out of it Lord, I'm in front of you, tired, completely helpess and I need you to carry me for a while.

He does it with a smile and He will always do it and then He says to me, have you rested? I say yes Lord and He says, walk beside me.

I just felt like sharing a bit with you brother and I hope you have a wonderful life ahead with the knowledge that you love Him and that is enough. For we know we are loved, He confirms it to us with each breath we take.

God bless
Much love
Faithful Son

 

[jari]

God doesnt count how many times we fall.

 

[Giggles4God]

Yup. And Just call on Jesus and keep track of how many times he answers you! :-D

 

[sirfallsalot]

Thank you everyone

 

[Property Of God]

Dear sirfallsalot,

God loves us no matter what, it has nothing to do with how good we are, it's a matter of who accepts Him and tries to keep His words. God loves us because of how good He is.

Who of us is good enough anyway? Come to think of it, we all have our demons and we all fall, and that is how it will always be. God doesn't want you to give up on Him, he wants you to believe that He could change you, and pull you up whenever you fall.

I know how you feel when you mess up badly, trust me, I mess it up too much, and I feel too hurt that I hurt Him, I feel like I really don't deserve His love, but He calms me down and reminds me that His love is demonstrated in the death of His son, His love is enough for me, not my perfection.

I noticed I only fall If I don't pray or read His word on a daily bases, somehow gets hard for us to be tricked and fall then, try keeping up with that, don't they say practice makes perfect?

God bless

 

[Turbopun]

First off, welcome to TJ. Second, thank you for your openness and honesty that gives us a window to see where you are at.


Galatians 5:16-24
16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law. 19 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, 20 idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, 21 envy, [1] drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.


From my own testimony, all I really have to say is this...

I can do nothing in my own strength. Nothing.

I fell on my face 4 days ago. Another man from this very forum helped me see something that led to restoration with the Lord. 4 days ago I felt failure, frustration and fear. Through some serious struggling I let go of everything. The struggling part was finding out what I wasn't letting go.

This is the verse I hold now try to hold onto when I fall on my face. I charge you to claim this verse in faith. If you lack the faith, pray that God would give you the faith.


Phillipians 1:6
He who began a good work will be faithful to complete it.


This is God saying He will do it. We are talking about His standard of fathfulness, not our standard of faithfulness. Trust in His ability to complete His work in you. Claim this by faith that God is telling you the truth.

There are several members here that want to come along side of you to encourage you, weep with you and share joy with you.


I found this to be encouraging and a reminder of the Spirit's power and my futile attempts to run my life apart from the Lord.

 

[bruren777]

Tired

Sirfalls,
First, welcome, we are glad you have joined us. You are not here by chance, it is by divine intervention. God brought you here, "Failure Is Not Falling Down, It's Staying Down!"

I read that somewhere, I thought it was a good thing to remember.

Have you considered that satan is attacking you? he loves to attack Christians, especially those whom are in a ministry, that's not only pastors, but Sunday school teachers, nursery staff, youth leaders, ect., if you are doing anything to bring the Word of the Lord, the enemy will attack.

When the enemy attacks, say to him, "satan, in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, get behind me". satan can not stand up tp the power of the Name of Jesus, when you invoke those words, he will leave. He does not give up, he keeps returning. Just remember, use those words when he attacks!

God Bless!

 

[sirfallsalot]

My dear friends

As I sit and read and reread these answers to my call for help, I can't help but to be amazed at kind hearts that are here. I have to admit my spirit is very poor and that my grasp of the Word is weak, there is still so much for me to learn. I could use all the help I can get but won't be a burden to anyone.

Thank you so much for the encouragement and your kindness

 

[Turbopun]

Galatians 6:2

Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.



My brother, you are not a burden.

 

[TheWidowsOffering]

God doesnt count how many times we fall.

hehe jari :shade:... Amen...

 

[jiggyfly]

Well Sirfallsalot, don't feel alone everyone has fallen time and again. The reality of spiritual life is we are the branches and Jesus is the Vine, no matter how hard we try, act, and imitate we will never become the Vine.

Here's my advise, stop trying to be like Jesus and just be with Jesus. You are absolutely blameless as far as Father is concerned because of what Jesus did on the cross.

Before Mrs. Jiggyfly and I were married, she invited me to go with her to visit the grand parents. It was amazing, they welcomed and accepted me and it had nothing to do with who I was but solely relied on who I was with, their grand daughter. Well, so it is with our heavenly Father, we are totally accepted and blameless because we are with His Son, Jesus. Now I know this sounds simple, but it's because it is just that simple.

 

[SpiritLedEd]

SirFallsaLot,

Do you realize that your story (and that of many other believers) is in the Bible? Its in Luke 15:11-24 NIV. Check it out.

Spirit Led Ed (SLE)

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Hey everyone


My heart aches for Him and I'm afraid because I know I will fall again and again, don't seem fair to Him. I try to strip away the untold layers of sin in my life but I am weak and so tired..........

I want to be where He is, not a last second save, working serving, to please Him. I want to be able to lay my head on his feet and just stay that way forever. I don't want to think it's beyond that now, I had my chance and failed. I'm just not sure anymore.

Dear sirfallsalot

The Lord bless you brother

I understand how you feel. It is so easy to trust our own feelings which tend always to condemn us....(well mine do)

But dear brother there are wonderful promises in God's word that are eternal and infallible. No matter how far you fall or feel you fail...His tender arms are there to hold you and draw you back to Him. Try to meditate on these promises and set them in your heart.

....We are more than conquerers, through Him that loved us
Romans 8:37

There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus
Romans 8:1

Remember the battle over sin is already won, satan is a defeated foe. Our Lord is victorious. Your sins past present and future are all covered by His precious blood.

I am praying for you sirfallsalot, knowing and believing the power of the love of our precious Saviour to cast out all doubts and fears.

God bless you

Julia

Now unto Him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy
To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.
Jude 1: 24,25



For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:38-39

 

[sirfallsalot]

Thank you everyone


God bless you