Under deep spiritual attack.

[diamarie]

Gosh, well for you to know about this, I should fill you in a little. Sorry if it's a bitt long..

Umm, well I'm coming out of a hindu home. I'm the only christian in my house. I became saved a couple years ago, and I fought hard since then to keep my relationship with God.
Recently, I found out that I did kinda bad in some exams I was preparing for for a REALLY REALLY long time. And now I'm repeating the year.
I made some bad decisions along the way, but I've kept to Christ as much as I could.
But now, I wake up each morning dreading the day, and I keep feeling like I'm worthless. I know I shouldn't cuz God has a plan, but I keep asking myself, "What do you think of your failure of a daughter dad?" My dad died like a year ago... This is because I did bad in the exams. Everyone in my family is attacking at my faith, and at my education... I'm being told how stupid I am constantly, and being called idiot and stuff.
I'm really trying not to take it on, but now, everything is just overwhelming me... And I'm really depressed, and my previous thoughts of suicide (from before I was saved) are coming back to me..

 

[stephen]

Hello Sister

Reading your post my heart reaches out to you in the love of Jesus. Sorry to hear about your exam results. But this is not the end of all things. Keep going.......concentrate upon these things.

Remember Jesus said "He would never leave you, neither would He forsake you" Pray.......take authority over the Hindu god's. Remember Jesus is with you. You do not have to fear. God Almighty is with you. Jesus said that "All power had been given unto Him" Satan has no power.......

I am praying for you as I write.

God Bless You

 

[Chad]

I'm happy you've shared this with us and feel sorry for your pain, but I am not faithless. I also feel you are living by faith, but struggling Let me clarify that it is 100% wrong of your family to insult you that way. As a matter of fact, they are the ones acting stupid, not you for doing bad on exams. Please also remember that Christ would forgive them and pray for them, so we should to do the same for our family no matter how difficult and stupid they may be acting towards us.

Also, don't think it is your fault that your father died (whichever the actual reason is). Unless I misunderstood your line when you mentioned this. You are * victorious in Jesus! * so keep your faith strong. Instead of dreading the day, being joyful in Christ and thank GOD for *another* day to live for Him and reach out to others, even your family who clearly lack Jesus in their lives.

Will pray for you sister.

 

[BecuzHeLives]

Oh sister,

I'm sorry to hear that, but your story is somewhat just like mine. But you have to face like 10 times hardship than me. Be brave sister, God have wonderful plan for you and I. Keep praying ok?? I REALLY feel your pain, trust me I REALLY feel your pain, but I just don't know a specific way to help you but just to tell you to Pray. Things happen for a reason. I found out it very true. Just keep believing God will deliver. Be happy Diamarie, you may fail the test in class. But if you pass the test in Faith, that is all that matter. May GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDANT AS ALWAYS. He love you and I no matter how bad we do in school and he love you regardless. Just try your best and God will take care of the rest.

 

[calluna]

hi diamarie, whenever I hear that someone is being called stupid, it always gets my attention as I know what that feels like. Sister you are not stupid, God doesn't think so, He chose you to be one of his daughters, so He has confidence in you. And you have come here to ask for support from fellow Christians now that's a Smart move!

Christ came so we can live life more abundantly, in freedom, there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, so whatever mistakes and wrong choices you have made, confess it to the Lord and look forward.

I feel for you because you are up against alot of opposition with your family, and I am sorry for your loss of your earthly father. But you still have our Father in heaven who loves you unconditionally, He is the one to focus on now. So stay strong in your faith. Read your bible daily, pray daily to our Father.
And so if someone says something hurtful just remember
Romans 8:31 ....if God is for us, who can be against us?

:lightbulb And I don't know if you read Chad's excellent post in the 'get saved' forum
titled 'In Christ I am'. Read this wonderful list of all the things we have and are entitled to as sons and daughters of God. We all must learn who we are in Christ, so we don't miss out on anything. It increases our confidence and helps us to stay strong.:lightbulb

I will pray for you and God Bless you

:shade: Calluna

 

[jessid9]

Hi Diamarie,
Now I only speak to you and understand from experience. Spiritual battle is not fun at all, and may be frustrating and very discouraging. But I promise you, that every step you take forward... when you push back, is a step that the enemy cant take back from you, is a step back that he has to take. It is so important to continue to seek God and focus on His word. that is the key. I have gone through many of the things you have posted, and somtimes it seems like it will never end and theres no way out. BUT THERE IS! ONLY THROUGH JESUS CHRIST!

I will pray for you and I am waiting for a great report! God Bless you!

 

[diamarie]

"Simon, Simon, behold, Satan has demanded permission to sift you like wheat; but I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail; and you, when once you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.

Luke 22:31,32 NASB"

He's so cool
He's broken me down to build me back up. I understand that now..


Thanks you guys...

 

[ChurchBoi79]

Gosh, well for you to know about this, I should fill you in a little. Sorry if it's a bitt long..

Umm, well I'm coming out of a hindu home. I'm the only christian in my house. I became saved a couple years ago, and I fought hard since then to keep my relationship with God.
Recently, I found out that I did kinda bad in some exams I was preparing for for a REALLY REALLY long time. And now I'm repeating the year.
I made some bad decisions along the way, but I've kept to Christ as much as I could.
But now, I wake up each morning dreading the day, and I keep feeling like I'm worthless. I know I shouldn't cuz God has a plan, but I keep asking myself, "What do you think of your failure of a daughter dad?" My dad died like a year ago... This is because I did bad in the exams. Everyone in my family is attacking at my faith, and at my education... I'm being told how stupid I am constantly, and being called idiot and stuff.
I'm really trying not to take it on, but now, everything is just overwhelming me... And I'm really depressed, and my previous thoughts of suicide (from before I was saved) are coming back to me..

Please note the we know the Devil is a liar! The enemy wants for you to have negative thoughts like suicide! Take a step back and look at the situation...it is Christ who led you to tell your story to us! You have told your story to people who will (and have already) prayed for you and interceded on your behalf! If you take that step back and read your replies you can see, hear and feel the power of the Lord, Our God working your situation as we speak! I too, sister, am praying for you as I type, because you have been an positive example to me on how to fellowship with other believers and how not hold anything back from Christ! Already to me, you are amazing!
God Bless you, look sometimes you just have to let go (of your worries) and let God (do what he does best)!

:boy_hug: From me to you :girl_hug:

 

[Sleepy]

God loves you loads and he's dying to tell you x

Gosh, well for you to know about this, I should fill you in a little. Sorry if it's a bitt long..

Umm, well I'm coming out of a hindu home. I'm the only christian in my house. I became saved a couple years ago, and I fought hard since then to keep my relationship with God.
Recently, I found out that I did kinda bad in some exams I was preparing for for a REALLY REALLY long time. And now I'm repeating the year.
I made some bad decisions along the way, but I've kept to Christ as much as I could.
But now, I wake up each morning dreading the day, and I keep feeling like I'm worthless. I know I shouldn't cuz God has a plan, but I keep asking myself, "What do you think of your failure of a daughter dad?" My dad died like a year ago... This is because I did bad in the exams. Everyone in my family is attacking at my faith, and at my education... I'm being told how stupid I am constantly, and being called idiot and stuff.
I'm really trying not to take it on, but now, everything is just overwhelming me... And I'm really depressed, and my previous thoughts of suicide (from before I was saved) are coming back to me..

Hi diamarie

Take a look at what God thinks of you and about you ....

LookingforGod.com

Click on/Read/Watch The Father's Love letter. He's waiting to give you a nudge to tell you how very much he loves you.

and blessings in Christ

Sleepy xx