TheSilentHero
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I hope this is the right section to post this. Sorry if it's not lol. But recently, I met a young man whom I just have a different connection with. Unlike any feeling I've ever had. He accepts me for my querky wierdness, and my silly moments, and my constant giggling.. among other things as well. The only thing we seem to be unequally matched on, is our faith. We haven't started dating, but it's a given that we share the same feelings for eachother. He is a die hard Athiest, and I'm a die hard Christian. I notice that he's drawn to the light of God in me but doesn't realize (I don't think he does) that it's God's light. If that is so, then that would mean that he is attracted to God's light. So in a way, by accepting me, he's accepting God (in some sense) and not realizing it, right? Because, if he were completely unreachable, I think he would reject me to the extreme. Surely by that, it means that not all hope is lost right? I'm trying to move into his heart ever so carefully and just show him that someone can care for him and not betray him or hurt him. He's had to deal with a lot of things in his life, as have I. And he really turned out to be quite strong. Stronger than me in a lot of cases. And when I mentioned my beliefs, at first he reacted negatively (not harshly though) but when I told him that God was my closest friend and I will stand by him and defend him with everything I have, he told me something very sweet. He said "I respect that, and I too stand by what I believe. But I'll keep that part of me away from you." To be willing to protect me from himself.. surely that means that there is hope right? I really don't mind him challenging my faith. A lot of what I believe, I believe from personal experience with God, so I know that those complicated unanswerable questions that he'd have would be difficult for me to answer. Cause I already have peace about most of them so I don't think to prep myself with that knowledge. But... I've already told God that I will choose God over this young man, even at the cost of my own heart. This man, I know for certain (but challenge all you want, but it's that much I know for sure. ^.~) the "one." I am not one to trust the feelings of my own heart because the heart is unpredictable and sometimes driven by the desires of the flesh. But this, without any doubt, is the one God intended for me. And you know, Ester married a Pagan King for God's purposes. Daniel was able to convince King Darius that his God was true because he had faith in God and showed faith even in the Lions den. The Bible says to not be married to someone whom you are unequally yoked with. And I will stand by that at the cost of my feelings. But before the time comes to make that decision, I want to do all I can to show him a side of God he's never known. Who are we to refuse witness to someone anyway? And oh how I pray that God will speak to him. Eventually, when we get closer, I'm going to move toward telling him, that I witness to him, because I don't want to go heaven without him there with me. Maybe, after crossing many bridges, showing him love like he's never known, and being there for him, will allow those words to penetrate his heart enough, for God to finally come in and save him. It would kill me if I had to go to heaven and see him burning in Hell.... I know I'd beg to take his place.. any other advice would be much appreciated. And I'll tell you right now, I'm not giving up on him. So don't post anything negative ok? :wink: Also, I will put in this effort because I think he's worth it. If it ends for me in heartache so be it. Call it foolish. I don't mind. Jesus died for us. We who were all undeserving and really unequally yoked with God because of our sins... Until God tells me to do otherwise, I'm going to show this man the love that Christ showed me and I won't give up on him. God didn't give up on me. Who am I to give up on someone else. And you know... I don't want to be in heaven... and be asked "Why didn't you try harder...?" Cause those people declared helpless and hopeless are going to ask us that one day. Sometimes God instructs us to move on after we plant the seed. And I'm not trying to be God, I'm just making room in this man's heart so that the seed will be planted in an area of his heart where it will be successful. Not in thorns or unsuitable ground. Once the seed is planted, I'll leave it up to God to do the rest. That's why, I'm going to my best to heal and help this man so that I don't fail at planting the seed. He's important to me.
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