Unpardonable? Rejected?

[Dominique]

Good morning all. I was raised Christian and I walked away because I always thought it was too hard to be a Christian, I believed in God and His Son, but thats all I knew. I would always be called to God but I rejected it, because I wanted to live my life. I went down a very dark path for 6 years. During my descend into darkness I was aware that what I was doing was against God, but I thought He just didn't want me to live. I felt restricted, limited, abused, and taken advantage of being a Christian and I just didn't want the rules anymore. I never stopped believing in God because I knew He was real, I just stared searching for answers in other places. I realize now as a child I never stopped to receive the Gospel of Christ. I knew the laws of Moses and I felt I wasn't good enough to live up to God's standards. I started coming under heavy attacks spiritually as a child and even now as an adult I have always been very aware of the spiritual realm. I still resisted the truth, i fought tooth and nail to come towards God. I felt i had no option, because the enemy was attacking me so hard. Eventually God led me towards the truth. I now see things more clearly and I believe that Jesus is the Son of God, and that He died for the Sins of the world but just not mine. I now realize how amazing God really is, but Spiritually I can't find any peace. I feel so rejected because I rejected Him for so long. I'm reading messages on Forgiveness because I know the truth will set me free. It's not easy being sensitive to the Spiritual realm and I can't sense Gods love, peace and Joy. & If I'm going through this God knows but He allows it. I'm confused and it's hard to continue on like this. I don't feel free. I don't feel saved. I don't feel accepted. I feel like I'm being pushed away, because I waited to long to repent. When I fast, or pray or anything related to the Lord I sense in my spirit.
Matthew 7:23
And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
1 John 2:18-19.
18 Little children, it is the last hour; and as you have heard that the[a] Antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come, by which we know that it is the last hour. 19 They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would have continued with us; but they went out that they might be made manifest, that none of them were of us.

2 Thessalonians 2:1-12New King James Version (NKJV)

The Great Apostasy
2 Now, brethren, concerning the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our gathering together to Him, we ask you, 2 not to be soon shaken in mind or troubled, either by spirit or by word or by letter, as if from us, as though the day of Christ[a] had come. 3 Let no one deceive you by any means; for that Day will not come unless the falling away comes first, and the man of sin is revealed, the son of perdition, 4 who opposes and exalts himself above all that is called God or that is worshiped, so that he sits as God[c] in the temple of God, showing himself that he is God.

5 Do you not remember that when I was still with you I told you these things? 6 And now you know what is restraining, that he may be revealed in his own time. 7 For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work; only He[d] who now restrains will do so until He[e] is taken out of the way. 8 And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord will consume with the breath of His mouth and destroy with the brightness of His coming. 9 The coming of the lawless one is according to the working of Satan, with all power, signs, and lying wonders, 10 and with all unrighteous deception among those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, that they might be saved. 11 And for this reason God will send them strong delusion, that they should believe the lie, 12 that they all may be condemned who did not believe the truth but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

I believe God is merciful, but I just feel so undeserving of His mercy. The Bible Also says that the same way we show mercy it will be giving to us. I've always been very unforgiving it's was hard to forgive people for hurting me, now I let things go but I didn't in the past. Can you guys give me some encouragement I'm feeling really hopeless, it's hard to continue in life feeling like Jesus won't accept me. If I don't have God I have Nothing.

 

[Fragrant Grace]

I believe God is merciful, but I just feel so undeserving of His mercy. The Bible Also says that the same way we show mercy it will be giving to us. I've always been very unforgiving it's was hard to forgive people for hurting me, now I let things go but I didn't in the past. Can you guys give me some encouragement I'm feeling really hopeless, it's hard to continue in life feeling like Jesus won't accept me. If I don't have God I have Nothing.

This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief.
1 Timothy 1:15

Wherefore He is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by Him, seeing He ever liveth to make intercession for them.
Hebrews 7:25

Greetings @Dominique

You can rejoice and have peace knowing it is not about what you have done or about how you feel.
It is all about what Jesus did for you at Calvary
He died to forgive your sins.....all of your sins, you are not unpardonable

Do you believe this?

For the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is Eternal Life through Jesus Christ our Lord
Romans 6:23

Look unto Me and be ye saved
Isaiah 45:22

Him that cometh unto Me I will in no wise cast out
John 6:37

He will abundantly pardon
Isaiah 55:7

I am the door: by Me if any man enter in, he shall be saved
John 10:4


Once we belong to Jesus and we have accepted Him as our Lord and Saviour, His holy Spirit dwells within us, leading, comforting and guiding us.
The old man, (our sinful nature) will continue to wage fleshy war on our salvation. However, the word of the Lord says

There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. (Romans 8:1)

ye are washed, but ye are sanctified, but ye are justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and by the Spirit of our God.
1 Corinthians 6:10

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

I believe God is merciful, but I just feel so undeserving of His mercy.

Romans 11:32 For God has bound everyone over to disobedience so that he may have mercy on them all.

Being able to be obedient starts with knowing it's about God's love and mercy not our willpower.
We can tell the difference because when it's really God's mercy it works.

When I cry out for mercy I will usually be given a chance to show mercy.
I can show mercy to those who have harmed me by picturing them as they were created and not what they have become.
If I, a human can forgive those who harm me then God who is love can show mercy even more perfectly.

The Bible Also says that the same way we show mercy it will be giving to us. I've always been very unforgiving it's was hard to forgive people for hurting me, now I let things go but I didn't in the past.

I think you are on your way to recovery because that is the path.
You may just need more mercy momentum by praying for others.
When I do that I start to feel God's mercy and it builds to joy and then strength.

Galatians 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

 

[RJ]

I've always been very unforgiving it's was hard to forgive people for hurting me,

• Now that is something else that is not unique to you, most of us have had to deal with this issue of forgiveness. If you want true deliverance and peace, forgiveness of others is a must.
• Think it through and make a list of everyone who has hurt you for any reason and that you may still hold a grudge against.
• Systematically by phone, letter, email, whatever...tell each of these people what you feel they have done against you and forgive them.
• The key is that you do this with all your heart and honesty.
• Here is the other key, whether they agree or accept your forgiveness make no matter, you have done what God requires and their approval is not essential!
• Once you have done this you can in effect move on with a clear conscience and start pushing that garbage out of your life. When you thing of any of these people in this way, remember you have done your due diligence and their is nothing more to do!
  

  I'm feeling really hopeless, it's hard to continue in life feeling like Jesus won't accept me.

  • Possibly you are with out Jesus or do not understand what you have in him.
  • Most who are hopeless is because they , in fact, do hot have Jesus in them.
  • Jesus has already accepted you from the foundation of the universe, it is you that must accept him, then you will have the connection you desire.
  Are you ready?

 

[Dominique]

This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief.
1 Timothy 1:15

Wherefore He is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by Him, seeing He ever liveth to make intercession for them.
Hebrews 7:25

Greetings @Dominique

You can rejoice and have peace knowing it is not about what you have done or about how you feel.
It is all about what Jesus did for you at Calvary
He died to forgive your sins.....all of your sins, you are not unpardonable

Do you believe this?

For the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is Eternal Life through Jesus Christ our Lord
Romans 6:23

Look unto Me and be ye saved
Isaiah 45:22

Him that cometh unto Me I will in no wise cast out
John 6:37

He will abundantly pardon
Isaiah 55:7

I am the door: by Me if any man enter in, he shall be saved
John 10:4


Once we belong to Jesus and we have accepted Him as our Lord and Saviour, His holy Spirit dwells within us, leading, comforting and guiding us.
The old man, (our sinful nature) will continue to wage fleshy war on our salvation. However, the word of the Lord says

There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. (Romans 8:1)

ye are washed, but ye are sanctified, but ye are justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and by the Spirit of our God.
1 Corinthians 6:10

Thank you so much for your encouraging words and Scriptures. I wrote them down and I will read them daily. God bless you.

 

[Dominique]

Thank you.

Romans 11:32 For God has bound everyone over to disobedience so that he may have mercy on them all.

Being able to be obedient starts with knowing it's about God's love and mercy not our willpower.
We can tell the difference because when it's really God's mercy it works.

When I cry out for mercy I will usually be given a chance to show mercy.
I can show mercy to those who have harmed me by picturing them as they were created and not what they have become.
If I, a human can forgive those who harm me then God who is love can show mercy even more perfectly.


I think you are on your way to recovery because that is the path.
You may just need more mercy momentum by praying for others.
When I do that I start to feel God's mercy and it builds to joy and then strength.

Galatians 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

 

[Dominique]

• Now that is something else that is not unique to you, most of us have had to deal with this issue of forgiveness. If you want true deliverance and peace, forgiveness of others is a must.
• Think it through and make a list of everyone who has hurt you for any reason and that you may still hold a grudge against.
• Systematically by phone, letter, email, whatever...tell each of these people what you feel they have done against you and forgive them.
• The key is that you do this with all your heart and honesty.
• Here is the other key, whether they agree or accept your forgiveness make no matter, you have done what God requires and their approval is not essential!
• Once you have done this you can in effect move on with a clear conscience and start pushing that garbage out of your life. When you thing of any of these people in this way, remember you have done your due diligence and their is nothing more to do!
  • Possibly you are with out Jesus or do not understand what you have in him.
  • Most who are hopeless is because they , in fact, do hot have Jesus in them.
  • Jesus has already accepted you from the foundation of the universe, it is you that must accept him, then you will have the connection you desire.
  Are you ready?

Great idea I'm going to write letters to everyone I hurt and who has hurt me. Forgiving them.Thanks

 

[RJ]

Great idea I'm going to write letters to everyone I hurt and who has hurt me. Forgiving them.Thanks

Wonderful, that is as good a start as any, but the effect of this forgiveness is not contingent on the recipients acknowledgement or approval! If a situation allows it, maybe you can even begin a new relationship with that person but that is not required. Developing love in your heart is one thing, but this is not a life long effort requirement. Like Jesus said, offer them forgiveness, but if they don't accept, "dust of your feet" and move on!
When ever you need some help with that relationship with Jesus let someone know, I'll help as best as I can!

 

[Dominique]

When ever you need some help with that relationship with Jesus let someone know, I'll help as best as I can!

Yes I'm working on this relationship as well. I have to aaccept His forgiveness, and mercy. His sacrifice for my sins. I know that no matter what a person does He is quick to forgive. Thank you

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

I am praying for you to receive his joy, peace,life and light.
There is a verse that says do not muzzle the ox that treads out the grain.

An ox is a servant and grain makes bread.
So the ox partakes of the fruit of his labor.
When I pray for you to receive joy I get in on the fruit of that labor.
So I almost feel selfish by lifting you and your situation to the Lord because I am lifted in that process.

When someone hurts you they owe you a debt because you suffer loss.
I am in a better position to pray for someone who hurt me or even someone I hurt because there is
already a sort of transaction taken place that is left undone.
To pray for our enemies is a powerful weapon against the darkness that has
people bumping into each other.

So it is an awesome privilege to pray for others in need because when I go to the one who meets all needs
I won't go away empty handed or empty hearted.
Peace.

 

[RJ]

Yes I'm working on this relationship as well. I have to aaccept His forgiveness, and mercy. His sacrifice for my sins. I know that no matter what a person does He is quick to forgive. Thank you

May God bless your future spiritual growth!

 

[Dominique]

I am praying for you to receive his joy, peace,life and light.
There is a verse that says do not muzzle the ox that treads out the grain.

An ox is a servant and grain makes bread.
So the ox partakes of the fruit of his labor.
When I pray for you to receive joy I get in on the fruit of that labor.
So I almost feel selfish by lifting you and your situation to the Lord because I am lifted in that process.

When someone hurts you they owe you a debt because you suffer loss.
I am in a better position to pray for someone who hurt me or even someone I hurt because there is
already a sort of transaction taken place that is left undone.
To pray for our enemies is a powerful weapon against the darkness that has
people bumping into each other.

So it is an awesome privilege to pray for others in need because when I go to the one who meets all needs
I won't go away empty handed or empty hearted.
Peace.

Thank you so much. I know someone prayed for me because today was a peaceful day, I haven't had one of those in a while. God bless you. & I will take your advice and lift up others as well.

 

[Brighthouse]

Sister Dominique, who among us deserves any mercy? Who among us has any right to hold any sin over another? To fully understand how valuable Jesus blood is,we must first pour his blood upon both our minds,and our life.( 1 cor 6:20 and 1 cor 7:23) Now what does that mean?? It means 2 things among others sister!! It means this!!( rom 4:8!!) a promise for all to have everyday! and it means this rom 8:1!!) From these two verse our results to others is this! ( rom 2:1-4!!) Look close at verse 4!) And since we are his children and we say we believe,we must then act upon that belief!( john 13:34-35!!)

That is our only work sis to indeed believe!!( john 6:28-29) The reward for staying in that belief is this!( rom 15:13)Another promise from our Jesus! And with this hope which is the very anchor to our own soul!( Hebrews 6:19) We enter before him daily,because his very blood gave us this right! No more are we cut off! We are sister, what Jesus said we are through him!!( rom 8:31-39!) It is not a strange thing, our feeling and emotion look to rule our lives sis,(1 peter 4:12-14!!)Doubt was born as early as Adam and Eve were brought forth!( gen 3:1-6) verse 4 doubt enters the stage!

The more in our mind we consider doubt,the action of it soon follows after us. There is, and will always be a consequence to doubting the Lord!( col 3:25) Do we learn from this? For all have had doubt sis!! Even those who claimed to love Jesus till the end!!( matt 26:56!!) We must stay in HIS WORD daily! renew our minds daily!!( rom 12:2) Because if we do not do this,we indeed will have yet another consequence. But it is not from fear we do these things sister!! We do these things because of Jesus love first for us,so that we now can love each other through him!( 1 john 4:17-19!!!) Notice sister how many times in just this one chapter you are called HIS BELOVED!! 1 john 4:1,7,11

The foundation comes from belief! ( psalms 40:1-3) others see your foundation,because Jesus light shines in you to light up there city!!( matt 5:14-16!!) No reason to hid anymore sister! You have every reason, like me to do God's will!! ALWAYS!!!! Be and always stay so thankful!!( 1 thess 5:18!) And so we are never thinking more of our self then we ought to think!( rom 12:3) But bearing one another burdens fulfilling the law of Christ himself!( gal 5:1-5) We learn what becoming a servant is,and how to always remain one!! God bless you sis!! ONLY BELIEVE!!!! Do not be afraid any longer!!( mark 5:35-36) God is not mad at you anymore!!( Isaiah 54:9-10!!) His Word brought wisdom to my mind,and his truth set us free through him sis!

 

[RJ]

I believe God is merciful, but I just feel so undeserving of His mercy

I was just looking over this again and felt compelled to say something.

• There is a difference in knowing of God and knowing God.
• A true "Born Again" believer does not feel so undeserving as you do.
• Are you truly saved with Jesus Christ living in you?

 

[Dominique]

Sister Dominique, who among us deserves any mercy? Who among us has any right to hold any sin over another? To fully understand how valuable Jesus blood is,we must first pour his blood upon both our minds,and our life.( 1 cor 6:20 and 1 cor 7:23) Now what does that mean?? It means 2 things among others sister!! It means this!!( rom 4:8!!) a promise for all to have everyday! and it means this rom 8:1!!) From these two verse our results to others is this! ( rom 2:1-4!!) Look close at verse 4!) And since we are his children and we say we believe,we must then act upon that belief!( john 13:34-35!!)

That is our only work sis to indeed believe!!( john 6:28-29) The reward for staying in that belief is this!( rom 15:13)Another promise from our Jesus! And with this hope which is the very anchor to our own soul!( Hebrews 6:19) We enter before him daily,because his very blood gave us this right! No more are we cut off! We are sister, what Jesus said we are through him!!( rom 8:31-39!) It is not a strange thing, our feeling and emotion look to rule our lives sis,(1 peter 4:12-14!!)Doubt was born as early as Adam and Eve were brought forth!( gen 3:1-6) verse 4 doubt enters the stage!

The more in our mind we consider doubt,the action of it soon follows after us. There is, and will always be a consequence to doubting the Lord!( col 3:25) Do we learn from this? For all have had doubt sis!! Even those who claimed to love Jesus till the end!!( matt 26:56!!) We must stay in HIS WORD daily! renew our minds daily!!( rom 12:2) Because if we do not do this,we indeed will have yet another consequence. But it is not from fear we do these things sister!! We do these things because of Jesus love first for us,so that we now can love each other through him!( 1 john 4:17-19!!!) Notice sister how many times in just this one chapter you are called HIS BELOVED!! 1 john 4:1,7,11

The foundation comes from belief! ( psalms 40:1-3) others see your foundation,because Jesus light shines in you to light up there city!!( matt 5:14-16!!) No reason to hid anymore sister! You have every reason, like me to do God's will!! ALWAYS!!!! Be and always stay so thankful!!( 1 thess 5:18!) And so we are never thinking more of our self then we ought to think!( rom 12:3) But bearing one another burdens fulfilling the law of Christ himself!( gal 5:1-5) We learn what becoming a servant is,and how to always remain one!! God bless you sis!! ONLY BELIEVE!!!! Do not be afraid any longer!!( mark 5:35-36) God is not mad at you anymore!!( Isaiah 54:9-10!!) His Word brought wisdom to my mind,and his truth set us free through him sis!

Thank you so much for the encouragement. This really means the world to me, i feel so much better these past couple of days. Thanks for the scripture references.

 

[Dominique]

I was just looking over this again and felt compelled to say something.

• There is a difference in knowing of God and knowing God.
• A true "Born Again" believer does not feel so undeserving as you do.
• Are you truly saved with Jesus Christ living in you?

From faith and belief in God's word, all who call on the Name of the Lord will be saved. If you believe in Christ you will be saved Right? My life has changed. My nature has changed? God is Love. I do believe I have been born again, because old things have past away and I am a new creature in Christ. My major issues is not fully understanding the Scriptures I quoted above. Because I chose to believe a lie, but now I was Revealed the truth about Jesus and I accept it. I realize my need for a savior. I just felt so guilty, and condemned from reading the word. But I Also feel confident and assured by reading other Scriptures. I hope and have faith that I'm save based on the word of God
How can you tell that Christ lives in you?
How does a true born again believer act?
What makes one saved?

 

[RJ]

This is a bit lengthy, please take your time and ask any questions you have!

How can you tell that Christ lives in you?

It has been my spiritual life experience that, by this point, your faith should be strong enough not to sound so disconnected from God and so confused about your own assurances.
Here is a Biblical list of Christ being in you. Please read slowly and know he loves you and you are forgiven and saved:
Christ In Us
John 6:54-56 "Whoever eats My Flesh and drinks My Blood has eternal Life, and I will raise him up at the last Day. For My Flesh is food indeed, and My Blood is drink indeed. He who eats My Flesh and drinks My Blood abides in Me, and I in him."
John 14:19-20
“A little while longer and the world will see Me no more, but you will see Me. Because I live, you will live also. At that day you will know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you."
John 15:3-5
"You are already clean because of the Word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me. I am the Vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing."
John 17:22-23
"And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are One: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in One, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me."
Romans 8:9
"But you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. Now if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he is not His."
2 Corinthians 4:8-11
"We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the Life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the Life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh."
2 Corinthians 13:5
"Examine yourselves as to whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Do you not know yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you are disqualified."
Galatians 1:15-17
"But when it pleased God, Who separated me from my mother’s womb and called me through His grace, to reveal His Son in me, that I might preach Him among the Gentiles..."
Galatians 2:20
"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the Life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith of the Son of God, Who loved me and gave Himself for me."
Galatians 4:19
"My little children, for whom I labor in birth again until Christ is formed in you..."
Ephesians 3:14-17
"For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from Whom the whole Family in Heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith...".
Philippians 3:7-8
"But what things were gain to me, these I have counted loss for Christ. Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for Whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ..."
Colossians 1:27
"To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the gentiles: which is Christ in you, the hope of glory."
Colossians 3:9-11
"Do not lie to one another, since you have put off the old man with his deeds, and have put on the new man who is renewed in knowledge according to the Image of Him Who created him, where there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcised nor uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave nor free, but Christ is all and in all."
1 Timothy 1:16
"For this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all long-suffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting Life."
Hebrews 3:14
"For we have become partakers of Christ if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast to the end..."
1 John 3:24
"Now he who keeps His commandments abides in Him, and He in him. And by this we know that He abides in us, by the Spirit Whom He has given us."
1 John 4:4
"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He Who is in you is greater than he who is in the world."
1 John 4:12-16
"No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God abides in us, and His love has been perfected in us. By this we know that we abide in Him, and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son as Savior of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him."
1 John 5:11-12
"And this is the testimony: that God has given us eternal Life, and this Life is in His Son. He who has the Son has Life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have Life."

How does a true born again believer act?

Knows or has this awareness that Jesus is in him and he is assured of a perfect and eternal life ahead.

What makes one saved?

"Calling upon his name" means more than you think!
If you, (something similar as in Romans 10: 8-13

• Repent of any know sins
• Having a repentant heart for any future sins
• Asked Jesus to be you personal Lord and Savior
• Believe that God raised him from the dead
• By Gods grace (free gift) he will give you the necessary faith to maintain your belief
• He gives you his son / Holy Spirit to live in you (indwelling) (the results in the above list) and at this very instant, you are saved!
• The sign of a true Christian is Christ in him!

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

How can you tell that Christ lives in you?

This person gave a great description of how it feels.

From faith and belief in God's word, all who call on the Name of the Lord will be saved. If you believe in Christ you will be saved Right? My life has changed. My nature has changed? God is Love. I do believe I have been born again, because old things have past away and I am a new creature in Christ.

How does a true born again believer act?

Like they are so loved by God that thankfulness and joy ooze from them and make a crazy love mess everywhere they go.
They pray for their enemies and are fierce about mercy.
Sometimes though they feel beat up and discouraged but then they remember the Lord and are refreshed.

What makes one saved?

Ephesians 2:8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--

Romans 11:32 For God has bound everyone over to disobedience so that he may have mercy on them all.
He seems to really like mercy and you seem to like mercy so that is a match literally made in heaven.

Your off to a good start and he will help.
Philippians 1:6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:

 

[Wired 4 Fishen]

Good morning all. I was raised Christian and I walked away because I always thought it was too hard to be a Christian, I believed in God and His Son, but thats all I knew. I would always be called to God but I rejected it, because I wanted to live my life. I went down a very dark path for 6 years. During my descend into darkness I was aware that what I was doing was against God, but I thought He just didn't want me to live. I felt restricted, limited, abused, and taken advantage of being a Christian and I just didn't want the rules anymore. I never stopped believing in God because I knew He was real, I just stared searching for answers in other places. I realize now as a child I never stopped to receive the Gospel of Christ. I knew the laws of Moses and I felt I wasn't good enough to live up to God's standards. I started coming under heavy attacks spiritually as a child and even now as an adult I have always been very aware of the spiritual realm. I still resisted the truth, i fought tooth and nail to come towards God. I felt i had no option, because the enemy was attacking me so hard. Eventually God led me towards the truth. I now see things more clearly and I believe that Jesus is the Son of God, and that He died for the Sins of the world but just not mine. I now realize how amazing God really is, but Spiritually I can't find any peace. I feel so rejected because I rejected Him for so long. I'm reading messages on Forgiveness because I know the truth will set me free. It's not easy being sensitive to the Spiritual realm and I can't sense Gods love, peace and Joy. & If I'm going through this God knows but He allows it. I'm confused and it's hard to continue on like this. I don't feel free. I don't feel saved. I don't feel accepted. I feel like I'm being pushed away, because I waited to long to repent. When I fast, or pray or anything related to the Lord I sense in my spirit.
Matthew 7:23
And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
1 John 2:18-19.
18 Little children, it is the last hour; and as you have heard that the[a] Antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come, by which we know that it is the last hour. 19 They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would have continued with us; but they went out that they might be made manifest, that none of them were of us.

2 Thessalonians 2:1-12New King James Version (NKJV)

The Great Apostasy
2 Now, brethren, concerning the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our gathering together to Him, we ask you, 2 not to be soon shaken in mind or troubled, either by spirit or by word or by letter, as if from us, as though the day of Christ[a] had come. 3 Let no one deceive you by any means; for that Day will not come unless the falling away comes first, and the man of sin is revealed, the son of perdition, 4 who opposes and exalts himself above all that is called God or that is worshiped, so that he sits as God[c] in the temple of God, showing himself that he is God.

5 Do you not remember that when I was still with you I told you these things? 6 And now you know what is restraining, that he may be revealed in his own time. 7 For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work; only He[d] who now restrains will do so until He[e] is taken out of the way. 8 And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord will consume with the breath of His mouth and destroy with the brightness of His coming. 9 The coming of the lawless one is according to the working of Satan, with all power, signs, and lying wonders, 10 and with all unrighteous deception among those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, that they might be saved. 11 And for this reason God will send them strong delusion, that they should believe the lie, 12 that they all may be condemned who did not believe the truth but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

I believe God is merciful, but I just feel so undeserving of His mercy. The Bible Also says that the same way we show mercy it will be giving to us. I've always been very unforgiving it's was hard to forgive people for hurting me, now I let things go but I didn't in the past. Can you guys give me some encouragement I'm feeling really hopeless, it's hard to continue in life feeling like Jesus won't accept me. If I don't have God I have Nothing.

Greetings Sister Dominique,
You said you felt as if you were being pushed away......well of course you were........do you actually believe the our enemy the devil would simply stand back and watch you go back to God through Christ Jesus with out a fight ? Sister it is NOT God and it will NOT ever be GOD doing this pushing away.

Listen to me please Dominique, you are going to have to place your emotions or feelings aside. The devil is fighting hard against you and yes your feel the pressure but I have awesome news for you. It's nothing but a cheap attempt to come kill, steel and destroy the word of God in your heart and mind and the love God truly has for you. Sister it is spiritual warfare that is going on inside you. The great battle of the mind. NOW is the time you will have to fight the good fight of faith and feelings and emotions will just keep you bound down under the pressure.

Faith is your key.........Trust is your key.....Love is your key.....Keep renewing your mind with the word of God and allow it to fill your heart. Speak Gods word over the situation and BELIEVE what He has said in His word. Every time you feel the pressure or just happen to remember to do this.......Thank God for His love and peace and thank Him for He will get you through this.

1John1:9 If we confess our sins He is Faithful and Just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

This means if you have to asked Him to forgive you of your sins which include walking away out on your own He it True and Just to forgive you-AND- Cleanse you of all your unrighteousness.........Then comes the hard part.........YOU HAVE GOT TO RECEIVE His forgiving and cleansing you. It helps me when I say by faith I receive my forgiveness and by faith I receive my cleansing of all my unrighteousness....Now it is done....Now it is time for Faith-Trust- and believing His word.....Throw out feelings and emotions...They have no place in this especially at this time in your life. You are going to have to walk by Faith and Faith does not get all feely wheely and all emotional.

One more to remember......Mark 11:25 Now this is vital for you as well.....
And when ye stand praying, FORGIVE if you have aught against any; that your Father which is in Heaven will forgive you your trespasses.

This means right then and there........If you have to forgive some one 200,000,000 times in a single day, then do it. It will get easier.
It is vital BECAUSE the devil our enemy is looking for every single opportunity to come against you and drag you back away from God.
UN forgiveness is a very good opportunity for him and in fact it give him right to inter fear in your life. Love and Forgiveness are not just something we should do or can do - They are direct commands of God and besides that ....It Pleases Him big time.

I know this is getting long so I will end this but I have one last thing to say. For you Dominique I am going to go and post a little piece of my testimony so you can read it. I want you to understand this one thing..........if any one would know the pressures of the devil fighting against repenting and going to God, believe me I do !!

When I got saved it was awesome. I got baptised and came out speaking in tongues. God moved daily big time in my life. He is so real. Then the church folk pulled me into their church. They preached and talked out of me what God had been building in me and I fell hard. For a little over 10 years I went through what you are and then some. It got to where I blamed God for all this stuff. Then one day finally, I found out the truth................Now God is my life my joy my everything....Sister YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS.... The victory has already been won in your name....fight this goof fight of faith and take your victory in hand.....So as I said I will go post my testimony......I do get....

Blessings and Love in Christ
Jim

 

[Fragrant Grace]

I know this is getting long so I will end this but I have one last thing to say. For you Dominique I am going to go and post a little piece of my testimony so you can read it. I want you to understand this one thing..........if any one would know the pressures of the devil fighting against repenting and going to God, believe me I do !!

Greetings @Dominique

Here is the link to Wired 4 Fishen's (Jim) testimony

A Little glimpse from where I came from..... | Talk Jesus

It is true the Lord can work with even the most broken vessels and restore them

When the devil whispers doubt and disbelief into your ear....remember he is a looser, he has lost the battle
Jesus who died to save you is victorious, and He who loves you so much can restore you too.

Where sin abounded, grace did much more abound
Romans 5:20