Glenn Foster
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First of all I apologize if this is not the right thread for this post.
I just recently started digging deeply into scripture for the first time in a long time after straying for several yrs. starting at the birth of Christ in the book of Matthew. I’m a freelance professional artist that has a very visual imaginative creative mind and it’s truly a gift/talent from God.
I use to be heavily inspired from what I believe was God placing it on me to illustrate scenes in the Bible or spiritual ones that would play out in my head dealing with my own battles. It was one of the ways besides praying over it to release what I was dealing with by illustrating it out in action with angels vs. fallen angels, demons ect. or depicting a beautiful passage from scripture or a glimpse of what I imagine heaven to be and posting it up socialy along with my testimony for others to see while Glorifying God.
The past month I have been completely overwhelmed by Visuals of scenes or things just playing out in my mind with some being good and seemingly Godly inspired while others being very dark even to a point I would have to pray against not to have them in my mind. Before I came back to God admittedly I was in a dark mind set unknowingly illustrating or sculpting dark things with most that related to hell, demons, Revelations ect. even making videos or games related on these topics.
These things I did NOT ever worship NOR would I ever even conceive the idea even though I had drifted I still loved and believed in my Heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I found the ideas enjoyable, inspiring and cool you could say especially in the flesh, but I feel I put it before God along with other material things so I may have idoled them subconsciously not realizing.
Anyways that brings me to the reason for my post while I was working on building my relationship with God slowly and after I read the 1st 3 chapters of Mathew to start out I would try to focus on visuals of Jesus birth and being babtized witnessing the holy spirit come upon him from God and trying to imagine the escape from Herod and how things played out but I guess due to my overactive imagination things would quickly get twisted and go directions I didn’t want at all when I would try and meditate on the scripture.
I would unwillingly envision Horrible things like Christ and the Baptist John being stabbed along with others and it would just turn into an onslaught of evil perversed things even though my main focus was on all good things.
I always ask to be guided by the Holy Spirit anytime I read the Bible and I felt Gods word really speaking to me and opening up my heart and mind as I read.
It’s ironic how my mind needs renewing and transformation from this world through the Bible yet the one true source I can only rely on in Gods word I’m tormented with visuals as such. Even now though I ask God for heavenly inspiration in my art to testify and further his kingdom with the talents he’s given me.
Is there anyone who experiences these things especially artist or creatives or just Christians in general? Are there any strategies or particular scripture or prayers I could pray against it?
I just recently started digging deeply into scripture for the first time in a long time after straying for several yrs. starting at the birth of Christ in the book of Matthew. I’m a freelance professional artist that has a very visual imaginative creative mind and it’s truly a gift/talent from God.
I use to be heavily inspired from what I believe was God placing it on me to illustrate scenes in the Bible or spiritual ones that would play out in my head dealing with my own battles. It was one of the ways besides praying over it to release what I was dealing with by illustrating it out in action with angels vs. fallen angels, demons ect. or depicting a beautiful passage from scripture or a glimpse of what I imagine heaven to be and posting it up socialy along with my testimony for others to see while Glorifying God.
The past month I have been completely overwhelmed by Visuals of scenes or things just playing out in my mind with some being good and seemingly Godly inspired while others being very dark even to a point I would have to pray against not to have them in my mind. Before I came back to God admittedly I was in a dark mind set unknowingly illustrating or sculpting dark things with most that related to hell, demons, Revelations ect. even making videos or games related on these topics.
These things I did NOT ever worship NOR would I ever even conceive the idea even though I had drifted I still loved and believed in my Heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I found the ideas enjoyable, inspiring and cool you could say especially in the flesh, but I feel I put it before God along with other material things so I may have idoled them subconsciously not realizing.
Anyways that brings me to the reason for my post while I was working on building my relationship with God slowly and after I read the 1st 3 chapters of Mathew to start out I would try to focus on visuals of Jesus birth and being babtized witnessing the holy spirit come upon him from God and trying to imagine the escape from Herod and how things played out but I guess due to my overactive imagination things would quickly get twisted and go directions I didn’t want at all when I would try and meditate on the scripture.
I would unwillingly envision Horrible things like Christ and the Baptist John being stabbed along with others and it would just turn into an onslaught of evil perversed things even though my main focus was on all good things.
I always ask to be guided by the Holy Spirit anytime I read the Bible and I felt Gods word really speaking to me and opening up my heart and mind as I read.
It’s ironic how my mind needs renewing and transformation from this world through the Bible yet the one true source I can only rely on in Gods word I’m tormented with visuals as such. Even now though I ask God for heavenly inspiration in my art to testify and further his kingdom with the talents he’s given me.
Is there anyone who experiences these things especially artist or creatives or just Christians in general? Are there any strategies or particular scripture or prayers I could pray against it?
