But what about the heart?
When I was a very young teenager I ran away from home. And I didn't stop until I was of the age 19. Until I meant a certain fellow who took me in under his loving arms.
But going back to my runaway years, I was always lost & all a lone. I seen things, bad things that most people only see in a movie.
So much horror, sadness & hate, is what I witnessed all the time.
Now it is true, it's my fault for putting myself in such situations. But never-the-less, I learned just how unbeautiful sin really is & how it can disguises itself & lure us into it's traps.
It wasn't until I was older, that I learned The Almighty GOD's Will for man kind. I all ways wanted to Worship Our Wonderful Creator, Our One & Only - Almighty GOD. And before I started to run away from home I use to have a few Bible Studies with a young Jehovah's Witness Lady. I was 13 & she, I think was 18.
I told her all my troubles at home & the troubles I had in school. She was very, understanding & caring. But I think she new that my troubles ran to deep with in myself for her to save me. But, she always reminded me; whenever I am scared or in serious trouble to call on Jehovah - Our One & Only - Almighty GOD! And I never forgot her words.
Many times as a constant runaway - I escaped the hands of death - in the luckiest ways one could ever imagine. Once I was hit by a speeding car, I think by a drug dealer running from someone. I was thrown into the air & hit hard on my left side. I lived & ended up with only a wicked bad giant bruise on my left leg where spider vains now remain.
Then another time I found myself sleeping in the park on a park bench, all of a sudden I come to terms with reality, realizing I have been doing nothing with my life but throwing it away. I went into shock. Seeing myself as a bum for the first time. I freaked out & before I realized it I was walking straight forward into non-stopping traffic. (I was in Manhattan, New York City) Then all of a sudden I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder as if to warn me & to wake me up out of the trance (shock) I was in. And it worked & saved my life. I don't know for sure where that hand came from, I look around & the people that I saw didn't look interested in me. So I wondered about Our Lord Jesus Christ & The Almighty GOD.
And another time I was raped by a small gang, I tried hard to get away, & just when I thought I was safe, I was wrong. The restaurant I ran into, was where I cried for help, not realizing that the guy working there is a pal to the gang. They come running in saying; "sorry Tony, this will not happen again," And dragged me out.
By then, I'm screaming rape, bloody murder, anything to get someone to call the police. But nothing Happened. Realizing I pushed my life to far {by running away from home all the time}, I started to believe no-one is coming to my rescue, my life will soon be over with nothing to show for it.
That;s when I remember what my Jehovah's Witness Friend had told me. And so, I started yelling out 'Jehovah!'
I don't really remember how many times, but all of a sudden they all ran into their cars, all but one. He stayed with me. The others yelled to him, bring her to the park, where they could finished me. He agreed with them, but he had also lied to them.
It is my belief The Almighty GOD warmed his heart with pity for me - because he put me in a taxi cab and had the taxi take me to my friends place.
My point is why would Jesus or Jehovah save my life - when I was leading such a bad life?
The only thing that keeps coming back to me, is HE knew my heart condition, HE knew that all the bad things that the streets had taught me, I totally disliked. And HE knew what I loved, down deep inside myself.
So, once again my point is, if HE could for give me - such a sinner I was - then surely HE forgives the ones that are reaching out to HIM, in the wrong way, even the ones that don't know they're doing wrong . But, knowing their hearts mean well & that they are doing their best in taken in knowledge of HIM, The One & Only True GOD - The Almighty GOD - even if they think HIS name is Jehovah, Jesus Christ, Yahweh or even Alla.
For there are some Muslims that do believe in peace as most Christians do & yet, again sadly but true, there are some Christians that believe in war, including my Dad, my brothers, my sister & my husband all seem to agree with war, too. Though I do not. *genesis!
When I was a very young teenager I ran away from home. And I didn't stop until I was of the age 19. Until I meant a certain fellow who took me in under his loving arms.
But going back to my runaway years, I was always lost & all a lone. I seen things, bad things that most people only see in a movie.
So much horror, sadness & hate, is what I witnessed all the time.
Now it is true, it's my fault for putting myself in such situations. But never-the-less, I learned just how unbeautiful sin really is & how it can disguises itself & lure us into it's traps.
It wasn't until I was older, that I learned The Almighty GOD's Will for man kind. I all ways wanted to Worship Our Wonderful Creator, Our One & Only - Almighty GOD. And before I started to run away from home I use to have a few Bible Studies with a young Jehovah's Witness Lady. I was 13 & she, I think was 18.
I told her all my troubles at home & the troubles I had in school. She was very, understanding & caring. But I think she new that my troubles ran to deep with in myself for her to save me. But, she always reminded me; whenever I am scared or in serious trouble to call on Jehovah - Our One & Only - Almighty GOD! And I never forgot her words.
Many times as a constant runaway - I escaped the hands of death - in the luckiest ways one could ever imagine. Once I was hit by a speeding car, I think by a drug dealer running from someone. I was thrown into the air & hit hard on my left side. I lived & ended up with only a wicked bad giant bruise on my left leg where spider vains now remain.
Then another time I found myself sleeping in the park on a park bench, all of a sudden I come to terms with reality, realizing I have been doing nothing with my life but throwing it away. I went into shock. Seeing myself as a bum for the first time. I freaked out & before I realized it I was walking straight forward into non-stopping traffic. (I was in Manhattan, New York City) Then all of a sudden I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder as if to warn me & to wake me up out of the trance (shock) I was in. And it worked & saved my life. I don't know for sure where that hand came from, I look around & the people that I saw didn't look interested in me. So I wondered about Our Lord Jesus Christ & The Almighty GOD.
And another time I was raped by a small gang, I tried hard to get away, & just when I thought I was safe, I was wrong. The restaurant I ran into, was where I cried for help, not realizing that the guy working there is a pal to the gang. They come running in saying; "sorry Tony, this will not happen again," And dragged me out.
By then, I'm screaming rape, bloody murder, anything to get someone to call the police. But nothing Happened. Realizing I pushed my life to far {by running away from home all the time}, I started to believe no-one is coming to my rescue, my life will soon be over with nothing to show for it.
That;s when I remember what my Jehovah's Witness Friend had told me. And so, I started yelling out 'Jehovah!'
I don't really remember how many times, but all of a sudden they all ran into their cars, all but one. He stayed with me. The others yelled to him, bring her to the park, where they could finished me. He agreed with them, but he had also lied to them.
It is my belief The Almighty GOD warmed his heart with pity for me - because he put me in a taxi cab and had the taxi take me to my friends place.
My point is why would Jesus or Jehovah save my life - when I was leading such a bad life?
The only thing that keeps coming back to me, is HE knew my heart condition, HE knew that all the bad things that the streets had taught me, I totally disliked. And HE knew what I loved, down deep inside myself.
So, once again my point is, if HE could for give me - such a sinner I was - then surely HE forgives the ones that are reaching out to HIM, in the wrong way, even the ones that don't know they're doing wrong . But, knowing their hearts mean well & that they are doing their best in taken in knowledge of HIM, The One & Only True GOD - The Almighty GOD - even if they think HIS name is Jehovah, Jesus Christ, Yahweh or even Alla.
For there are some Muslims that do believe in peace as most Christians do & yet, again sadly but true, there are some Christians that believe in war, including my Dad, my brothers, my sister & my husband all seem to agree with war, too. Though I do not. *genesis!
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