Where does God want me

[Soul Language]

I repented one year ago but fell back strong into my addiction for Meth. I lost my job and my apartment and have been living out of my truck since the begining of this month. My bills are two months behind because I never payed them when I had my place. I also owe my landlord over three hundred dollars as well. I was really considering Teen Challenge. It's a one year christian program for drug addicts like me. The only problem is is that I don't know how I'm going to pay my bills while Im in there. My mom said she won't help out with 130 dollars a month for my credit card and student loan (when she gives my sister 1000 a month for college).. She said that if I want the program bad enough that I will just let them go delinquent for a year and pay them back when I get out. So those were my plans. I have a truck that is worth about 500 dollars that i have to sell for to pay for the entry fee.

Well anyways, just today I found out that I got a job that I applied and interviewed for two months ago. This is a really good job that pays more then any job I have ever had. I was surprised they called me two months later... the person they hired must not have worked out so they decided to call me. Anyways, I'm kind of stuck in a tough decision here. I want to do what god would want me to do.. but I have no idea what he would want me to do.

How do i find out where god wants me? Does he want me to get help here in my city or leave town and go massively in debt while i sit in treatment for over a year.. I dunno... please help me jesus. it has never worked out here before.. or maybe it can work out here.

 

[Questioning]

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Life is all about making tough decisions. Usually, if a decision brings IMMEDIATE gratification, it's a poor one. Life generally works out better when you delay pleasure and carry on in diligent work and personal sacrifice. Addictions interfere with the structure of your life and cause you to lose sight of the important things you want to achieve. Personally, I'd rather have a friend who "schedules" his use of crack so that he "enjoys" it once a year on New Years Eve, but at no other time, than a friend who is addicted to fatty foods and can't go more than a few hours without consuming 2,000 calories of grease and sugar in the form of fast food or processed sweets.

As to Teen Challenge, I've worked with kids who've turned their life around forever, and I've worked with kids who've reverted back to their "bad ways" a few weeks after the program. So take in all the advice you get, consider it well, and then firmly and confidently decide what to do. If you know that you want to stay off of meth, then decide to stay off of it and take whatever measures you need to take to fulfill your commitment to yourself.

Good luck to you!

 

[Boanerges]

Pray and seek God's face my friend. It is only in His presence that such decisions can be clearly made.
You are in my prayers.

 

[Seeker Of Jesus]

I'm sorry for your situation, it must be tough. Keep praying and asking the lord for his help, Sometimes it seems like he isn't there but trust me he's there. Never give up on the lord for he will never give up on you. Many people quickly give up on the lord because they have no root,

(Mat 13:21 NIV) But since he has no root, he lasts only a short time. When trouble (thlipsis) or persecution (diogmos) comes because of the word, he quickly falls away.

As in all things, God’s ultimate purpose for us is to grow more and more into the image of His Son (Romans 8:29). This is the goal of the Christian, and everything in life, including the trials and tribulations, is designed to enable us to reach that goal. It is part of the process of sanctification; that is, being set apart for God’s purposes and fitted to live for His glory. The way the trials accomplish this is explained in 1 Peter 1:6-7: "In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which perishes, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." The true believer’s faith will be made sure by the trials we experience so that we can rest in the knowledge that it is real and will last forever.

they give up on the lord because when they go into faith they suddenly expect bullets to bounce off em they expect to feel a great change, and they expect angels to come down from the heavens and sing, but it does not work that way. If anything you will probably go through more harsher times then before you accepted him in your life, know that satan is aware that you have accepted the lord in your life and he hates that, he hates it so much that he will try to use anything at his disposal to make you loose the faith, Keep praying to the lord Jesus Christ and ask him to see you through this tough time, Hold his hand and he shall guide you. Now it might not happen as quickly as you want it but have patience the lord will help you.


Psalm 23 (NIV)
(Psalm of david)
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.


I will also pray for you and hope the best for you.

God bless you, my brother

 

[MelodyC]

I can't give you any better advice than what has already been said.

Personally I couldn't even to help myself take on any further debt. However I am not in your shoes.

Do give this at least some time in prayer.

Praying for you and your need to get clean. Praying for the Lord to clearly guide you where you should go. In Jesus Name Amen.