I get these thoughts that I need to throw the lamp, hold my breathe till I pass out, or kill my mother! But those are hard things to do! Is this from God? Is he testing me ? Is this what it means to make Jesus your lord?or are these just intrusive thoughts ..
First welcome to Talk Jesus James!
Glad you have chosen to post and seek answers to questions that are on your mind.
Intrusive thoughts of course. We are inundated with so much stimuli in today's society, Social media, gaming, Cable, even the internet to name a few, it's hard to know the origin of what pops into our heads. Especially, when if we were to think about it as you have, we realize they make little sense. I mean why try to hold your breath until you pass out?
If you want to know if something comes from God or not. Then you need to know more about God to make that determination. The God that we as Christians believe in comes through Jesus Christ who is God incarnate. Meaning, God in the flesh. We know of His life through the Holy Bible. Especially through the 4 Gospels. Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John.
So, there are many questions we ask ourselves, and as happens too often. Too few of them get answered in a way that satisfies!
Still for us who are Christians there was always a starting point. I call it coming to the foot of the Cross moment. Each person here who calls Jesus Christ their Lord and Savior has a bio. Most have there stories typed there on how they came to know Jesus in the way that they do. You're welcome to take a look at them.
You don't say where you stand as a Christian. Meaning if you are one, or have gone to Church and heard some stuff about Jesus etc. but would not consider yourself one. So, I'm going to share some links with you from some Brothers & Sisters in Christ Jesus here who have posted some explanations to things you might not have given much thought to. I truly hope they help. I'm sure I won't be the last one to look to help you James. Know that I will be praying for you and once again "Be Welcome to Talk Jesus"!
With the Love of Christ Jesus.
Nick
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I have a lot of links, but I hope these can be a starting point for you.
Why believe in Christianity?
Father's Love Letter
How do I accept Jesus as my Savior?