Wicca...

[Goggatjie]

i come out of a family that truly follows God. my sister is currently studying teology.. my parents are maraige councelours.

um.. throughout my life i have had the tendancy to turn my back on God quite alot.. i have tried to kill myself so so many times. I've been to satanism and came out and went back to God. I've been to counceling to help me get over an abusive relationship and my hatred towards my mother(i'm still working on that). i've been a cutter now for 5 almost 6 years.. ive been out of satanism for almost 2 years now. but a year after i was saved, i started getting involved in Wicca...

What started as a mere interest quickly lead to obsession...
it has been about 10 months now...maybe more.

i know that i need help.
i am scared.

i don't want to go back to God because i don't want to let Him down again.
I know you might think me crazy for saying that, but that is how i feel.
i have done it too many times before.

i am not really sure why i came here to type all of this today.... maybe it is because typing is the only way i am able to speek..

i think a part of me came here looking for some kind of fellowship...encouragement.
i am not sure.

i am very confused, and quite broken. i honestly dont want to go on like this.. i feel as though i have locked myself in a dark room and am now awaiting the ineffitable destiny..

i want my real smile back.. and i can not do that on my own. i've tried and i fell harder every time i did..

please, i dont know if i am asking for answers or opinions...
but either way i need help.. and i am not sure where to turn to anymore

 

[Br. Bear]

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
2Timothy 1:7




Greetings Goggatjie,


May I begin by saying that God loves you?

Yes, Our Lord loves you dear Goggatjie. This is so evident in that no matter how often and how much you have deserted Him and turned from Him and even attempted to take your life.... you are still here... and even now, seeking Him through your post here at Talk Jesus..... and, He has not given up on you but continues to softly call you.. to allure you with His eternal love, for He is love. (see 1John 4:16 )

Please read this....


Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak comfortably unto her.
And I will give her her vineyards from thence, and the valley of Achor for a door of hope: and she shall sing there, as in the days of her youth, and as in the day when she came up out of the land of Egypt.
And it shall be at that day, saith the LORD, that thou shalt call me Ishi; and shalt call me no more Baali.
For I will take away the names of Baalim out of her mouth, and they shall no more be remembered by their name.
And in that day will I make a covenant for them with the beasts of the field, and with the fowls of heaven, and with the creeping things of the ground: and I will break the bow and the sword and the battle out of the earth, and will make them to lie down safely.
And I will betroth thee unto me for ever; yea, I will betroth thee unto me in righteousness, and in judgment, and in lovingkindness, and in mercies.
I will even betroth thee unto me in faithfulness: and thou shalt know the LORD.
And it shall come to pass in that day, I will hear, saith the LORD, I will hear the heavens, and they shall hear the earth;
And the earth shall hear the corn, and the wine, and the oil; and they shall hear Jezreel.
And I will sow her unto me in the earth; and I will have mercy upon her that had not obtained mercy; and I will say to them which were not my people, Thou art my people; and they shall say, Thou art my God.
Hosea 2:14-23


Goggatjie, Jesus desires your life.... to love him and to be loved by Him.. to know His love for you.

It is Jesus whom you seek. Call out to Him.. and you will find He is at the door of your heart, waiting to be invited to come in and abide with you.... and he is King.... and where the King is, He reigns...... and that is what your soul longs for now.... for His joy, His comfort, His assurance, His peace, His tender mercies, His forgiveness, His life ... His love.





Bless you ....><>



Br. Bear






Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
Philippians 4:6-9

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Who delivered us from so great a death, and doth deliver: in whom we trust that He will yet deliver us.....
2 Cor 1:10




Dear sister Goggatjie,

I am sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you at the moment
I am also very pleased that you have come here and posted......I believe that is the Lord drawing you back to Himself, He loves you and cares for you so much......no matter how bad things may seem.

I notice you say in your profile that in the past you have had amazing experiences with God and had God filled times.....Those times can return....you can again rejoice in the joy of your salvation.

Although in your post you say you do not want to turn back to God.......because you dont want to let Him down....Dear Goggatjie, the Lord can work with broken lives and backslidden lives and restore you back to Himself......He is there waiting for you.....His arms of love are open. He will never stop loving you.

As you well know you are dabbling with dark powers being involved in Wicca....However, praise the Lord......satan is a defeated enemy....his doom is sealed.....The Lord Jesus is just waiting to sit back on the throne of your heart and for you to recommit your life to Him....He can deliver you from this.

Do you have any Christian support around you.....people that you can trust to talk about these things with?

O Jesus precious Saviour....Thank You that you are able to deliver us from all sins. Thank You that your arms of love are ever open and that no-one is ever out of Your reach or unable to return to Thee. O Lord continue to whisper Your love to dear Goggatjies heart...and Lord may she once again rejoice in the joy of her Salvation and experience the treasures and richness of Your most beautiful love. Thank You Jesus.

I am and will be praying for you.....I know that Jesus is longing for you to return to Him.....just call to Him Goggatjie.

The Lord bless you


Julia

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
My help cometh from the Lord: Which made heaven and earth.
He will not suffer thy foot to be moved:
He that keepeth thee will not slumber.Behold, He that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord is thy keeper:
The Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand
The sun shall not smite thee by day: Nor the moon by night.
The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil:
He shall preserve thy soul.
The Lord shall preserve thy going out, and thy coming in: from this time forth and even for evermore

Psalm 121

 

[Goggatjie]

thank you br.bear, i know God loves me. but i can not quite explain to you the fear that lies within me..

and julia, thank you as well.. and no, i dont have any Christian support. the majority of my friends are athiests. i can not speek to my family. they have pretty much shut me out due to my past..

i am leaving home in 12 days.

i thank both of you wholeheartedly,,
danielle

 

[Br. Bear]

Dear Danielle,

we will be praying for you... and understand what you are going through.... but remember to keep your eyes fixed on Jesus and your heart and mind stayed on Him.

Bless you ....><>



Br. Bear

 

[sandman]

Magic been there

God loves you.He well never turn his back on you.stay here with these people of god.there very nice people and they won't turn there back on you.You don't need wicca ok.You just need god.Just beleave in the bible.throw that book of shadows away.Just concentrate on what Jesus says. It's going to be ok. Just hang out with these people.it's safe here.The more you stay on these Christian forums the more youll feel better.You started back in the right place...........sandman
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[Goggatjie]

i have gotten rid of the book two days ago... but my mind does not want to let go of the ideas.. the way it feels.. and i know that i am safe here.. but how long will that last? how long before i look away again?

 

[amadeus2]

May God continue to richly bless you Danielle! Yes, He has blessed you by bringing you here where people are listening and helping.

As to looking away, we all want to and sometimes do look away from Him. Each time we do it even momentarily can get us into trouble. W cannot stop that but Jesus can. When you do pray ask for His strength to keep your eyes always on Him even when you are tempted to otherwise.

God does love everyone of us, no matter what our current situation, but many people don't receive help because they do not ask for it.

"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:" Matt 7:7

The only about asking is that we must do it in the right way for the right things to be sure of His answer...

"Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may spend [it] in your pleasures." James 4:3

Also when we pray we should also do as even Jesus did by asking not for our own will, but for our Father's will:

"...nevertheless, not as I will, but as thou wilt." Matt 26:39

I will also being praying for you along with these others here!

 

[Fragrant Grace]

i have gotten rid of the book two days ago... but my mind does not want to let go of the ideas.. the way it feels.. and i know that i am safe here.. but how long will that last? how long before i look away again?

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Phil 4:13

Dear Danielle

Commit all these worries to the Lord. Let Him be your strength....through His power all things can be achieved in accordance with His perfect will.

The Lord is calling you back to Himself....He loves you so much.

We are continuing praying for you Danielle......knowing that the Lord is abundantly able to restore you to Himself.

God bless you

Julia


For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee
Isaiah 41:13

Greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world.
1 John 4:4

 

[sentinel7]

Hi Goggatjie:
I've seen your drawings and commented them,and I also saw your profile.
I found this old post of you,considering how you going now?I hope you get better in hopes and surrounded by love.

throughout my life i have had the tendancy to turn my back on God quite alot.. i have tried to kill myself so so many times. I've been to satanism and came out and went back to God. I've been to counceling to help me get over ...
.
.
.
i know that i need help.
i am scared.

i don't want to go back to God because i don't want to let Him down again.
I know you might think me crazy for saying that, but that is how i feel.
i have done it too many times before.

i am not really sure why i came here to type all of this today.... maybe it is because typing is the only way i am able to speek..

i think a part of me came here looking for some kind of fellowship...encouragement.
i am not sure.

i am very confused, and quite broken. i honestly dont want to go on like this.. i feel as though i have locked myself in a dark room and am now awaiting the ineffitable destiny..

i want my real smile back.. and i can not do that on my own. i've tried and i fell harder every time i did..

please, i dont know if i am asking for answers or opinions...
but either way i need help.. and i am not sure where to turn to anymore

I have the exact feelings you described.

 

[xspinningisfun]

i come out of a family that truly follows God. my sister is currently studying teology.. my parents are maraige councelours.

um.. throughout my life i have had the tendancy to turn my back on God quite alot.. i have tried to kill myself so so many times. I've been to satanism and came out and went back to God. I've been to counceling to help me get over an abusive relationship and my hatred towards my mother(i'm still working on that). i've been a cutter now for 5 almost 6 years.. ive been out of satanism for almost 2 years now. but a year after i was saved, i started getting involved in Wicca...

What started as a mere interest quickly lead to obsession...
it has been about 10 months now...maybe more.

i know that i need help.
i am scared.

i don't want to go back to God because i don't want to let Him down again.
I know you might think me crazy for saying that, but that is how i feel.
i have done it too many times before.

i am not really sure why i came here to type all of this today.... maybe it is because typing is the only way i am able to speek..

i think a part of me came here looking for some kind of fellowship...encouragement.
i am not sure.

i am very confused, and quite broken. i honestly dont want to go on like this.. i feel as though i have locked myself in a dark room and am now awaiting the ineffitable destiny..

i want my real smile back.. and i can not do that on my own. i've tried and i fell harder every time i did..

please, i dont know if i am asking for answers or opinions...
but either way i need help.. and i am not sure where to turn to anymore

God knows you by name. He knows every hair upon your head, he knows every tear that you have cried, he knows who you're thinking about right now, he knows the hurts that you have faced, he knows the struggles, he knows the traps that you are in, he know your by your name. And let me tell you, it's something very personal to him.

I cut for 7 years. I know what it's like. I had to keep it a secret, and it sucked. My parents knew about it in the beginning. But they now think that I have stopped. And I have...I haven't cut in like a year. But when I did, they didn't know. Listen, don't be afraid. God will love you. You think that when you come back to God, hes going to be disappointed? How is that possible? HE LOVES YOU. Don't you think he'd be celebrating when you return to Him? OF COURSE HE WILL BE. Rebuke Satan. Satan has nothing but LIES for you. Because he hates you. He hates, hate, hates you. But God, he loves, loves, LOVES you. He knows you by your own name! Your name is written on his heart.

You are fearfully and wonderfully MADE. We all sin. We all disappoint God. But that doesn't change God's love for you. God's love for you will always remain constant. It will never waver. NEVER.

If you are getting into witchcraft, then you are heading to hell. I can't say it any more nicer than that. And sister, we don't want you to go and I know you don't either. So reach out to Jesus. Ask him to become a part of your life. Never fall into that certain sin again. It's dangerous! You are LOVED!