I don't know if He gonna give me a chance.
Then what does this passage tell you? (Two different translations...)
This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the LORD'S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him. The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.
(Lamentations 3:21-26 KJV)
This will I lay up in my heart, therefore I will endure. It is the mercies of the Lord, that he has not failed me, because his compassions are not exhausted. Pity us, O Lord, early every month: for we are not brought to an end, because his compassions are not exhausted. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, says my soul; therefore will I wait for him. The Lord is good to them that wait for him: the soul which shall seek him is good, and shall wait for, and quietly expect salvation of the Lord.
(Lamentations 3:21-26 Brenton)
And what does this say about the mercies of the Lord to give another chance? Is God not longsuffering?
The LORD is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, ...
(Numbers 14:18 KJV)
I don't know if He gonna give me a chance.
So now you know. (But you need to reach out and take it.)
Problem is I sacrificed for the dark forces after becoming a christian.
How is that any worse than stealing (or the actual physical murders that Paul committed)? And yet the
Christians in Ephesus were still stealing, or Paul wouldn't have needed to write "
Let him that stole steal no more:"
And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness. Wherefore putting away lying, speak every man truth with his neighbour: for we are members one of another. Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil. Let him that stole steal no more: but rather let him labour, working with his hands the thing which is good, that he may have to give to him that needeth.
(Ephesians 4:23-28 KJV)
So then in like manner I write you: let him that "sacrifices for the dark forces" sacrifice no more. (YES, it's that simple.) Although I must be honest to admit that this "sacrificing" might mean anything, really. Send me a PM if you feel it necessary to explain any details, but that won't change the Gospel Truth of Forgiveness and the manner in which we are forgiven.
rather it was for I wanted to save them.
People get saved. "Dark forces"? Again, that might mean anything, but we have no obligation to save demon critters or fallen angels.
OUR obligation is to obey the Lord.
I said if they see how much I love them by bearing all what they do to me, and I manage to love them while or in the time following that they cause me misfortunes, I can show them how much I love them and I believed that will stop them of being fiendish.
In many scripture passages, God is represented as your shield FROM what the "dark forces" would do to you. If He is a high tower, then one is to run into the refuge, not run outside saying "hurt me, hurt me". You don't need to do that. But we all make mistakes. I recall a testimony from a new Christian who thought that by helping his unsaved friends to rob a bank it would show them how much he (and Jesus) loved them. Now truly, I don't know what you mean by "dark forces" BUT, they don't think like humans. (And yes, I have met a handful.)
After a while I regretted everything, but God warned me quite frequently to stop, but I rejected His counsel decidedly.
Then Repent, which means to turn around. If you know His counsel, then accept it. Follow it. Breath it. Live it. Obey it. Again, if you need to discuss any specific details, please feel free to send me a PM (private message, aka. start a conversation).
I don't know if He gonna give me a chance. If not I got to endure all what I promised and asked for this purpose.
You have NO obligation to any promises that you may have made if you, in prayer, renounce them before the Lord. Why? "His mercies are NEW every Morning." And -
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. And all things are of God, who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation;
(2 Corinthians 5:17-18 KJV)
Be ye reconciled to God. Accept the freedom of forgiveness that He provides. If you have specific worries about how to deal with specific obligations, let me know.
God bless,
Rhema
PS:
rather it was for I wanted to save them. I allowed to do anything to me to stop them in their destructing ways.
Well now you know that doesn't work. Again, not sure who the "them" are, but the WAY of Salvation is that which Jesus taught. There is no other WAY to Salvation for anyone or anything except through the Word (teachings) of Jesus.