GaryMeetsJesus
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Hello fellow children,
I know this is long but please read and help me its important.
My name is Gary. I have lived for twenty seven long painfull years. My past is not one I am proud of I regret alot of stuff that I done. These are not things I tell anyone in real life but I know I will be safe from judgment here. I came across this site with help from God. He gave me the power to take control for the first time in my life. And google this forum. I believe he sent me here to help me finally find him.
I think when I was really young I knew God was there but bad experences when I was a kid blocked him out. The bad experences growed, maybe it was God punishing me for losing faith in him. Most of my bad experences came from my father was an alcoholic. He would get drunk and focus his anger on me. Sometimes he just roughed me up but other times he Id rather not say. Lets just say if roughing up was all I got it was a good day. When I was ten he went to prison for sending death threats to Michael Dukakis. I did not want him to ever get out he could rot in there. But he did when I was in highschool. He beat me way harder then the past. I started to lose focus in school. After He sayed I stole money from him he beat me so bad he broke my ribs with a kick. I couldn’t take it anymore and dropped out of school and ran away my last year.
I traveled north sleeping in the woods with cayotes. I made it from Newark to Rockford Illionois in a week. I got a job at a burger king and made friends with the other kitchen guys. They all liked drugs and got me hooked but they let me say at there place for the start when I was homeless. I got an apartment and was smoking pot and that got me into heroin. I got fired at burger king and got hired at Sonics as a smoothie maker. I met a female named Courtney and she became my first lover and nine months lader the mother of my boy Preston. I was still doing smack. We moved in together and started a family for a year. One night we got in a fight when we was drunk and she got mad and drove away. That night she ran a red light and hit a small car. She died and so did a little girl. Court was one of the most good and unselfish people I had ever known. I loved her. I kept asking myself what if one little thing changed like Court didn’t get mad or that other car wasn’t driving so late. Would my babys mama still be with me.
Me and Preston moved to Chicago. I got a job at another burger king. I stopped doing heroin and did other drugs insteed. I would snort lines and walk around Chicago. I met my girl I would later get in trouble with walking around. When I met her she was a hooker. She liked being with me but she didn’t get close to begin. For the first seven months she didn’t even tell me her real name I had to refer to her by her work name. Christi Cream.
Eventually she opened up and told me her name was Tammy. She told me she had a kid two. Her son is coinsidentally a liar. So from this point I will reefer to my son as Preston and her son as liar. I asked her to move into together. After two months of Tammy living with me we decided to get married mostly for money reasons. I thought she was normal but she ended up being bipolar.
One night after we took some good lsd she thought Preston was a lizard. For those who haven’t tried lsd, it is a hallucinogen and can make you see unreal things. She dragged Preston outside and locked him out. I was sleeping and didn’t know that she did that. I let him inside in the mourning but was real mad. I told Tammy we were have to cut down our drugs to be better parents. I got clean and thought she did two. About a month later, I picked liar up from first grade and when I came home I found Tammy with a crack pipe in our apartment WITH PRESOTN home. I was real mad and didnt control my temper. She got mad back and said she was gonna tell police I beat her. She reported me and lier also made stuff up to help his mama. I have a prior record like drug possession, possession of drug paraphernalia, criminal trespassing, sale of drugs to a minor, resisting arrest, and theft. I am facing charges for aggrevated battery wich is another felony and I could go to jail for 10 years.
The lawyer says I am gonna probably be found guilty because no one will believe me. I dont even think he believes me. I am scared of going two prison. I will be the first to admit that I have made some mistakes in life but its cause been alone. I am ready to accept Jesus Christ as my lord and savior. I heard its when we need him most we find him, and I think he will help me get throw this.
All I ask is that you pray for me cause I can be a good person and am a good father. Also learn from my mistakes cause any one can make them.
Thank you for reading it is longer then a page and God bless.
Gary
I know this is long but please read and help me its important.
My name is Gary. I have lived for twenty seven long painfull years. My past is not one I am proud of I regret alot of stuff that I done. These are not things I tell anyone in real life but I know I will be safe from judgment here. I came across this site with help from God. He gave me the power to take control for the first time in my life. And google this forum. I believe he sent me here to help me finally find him.
I think when I was really young I knew God was there but bad experences when I was a kid blocked him out. The bad experences growed, maybe it was God punishing me for losing faith in him. Most of my bad experences came from my father was an alcoholic. He would get drunk and focus his anger on me. Sometimes he just roughed me up but other times he Id rather not say. Lets just say if roughing up was all I got it was a good day. When I was ten he went to prison for sending death threats to Michael Dukakis. I did not want him to ever get out he could rot in there. But he did when I was in highschool. He beat me way harder then the past. I started to lose focus in school. After He sayed I stole money from him he beat me so bad he broke my ribs with a kick. I couldn’t take it anymore and dropped out of school and ran away my last year.
I traveled north sleeping in the woods with cayotes. I made it from Newark to Rockford Illionois in a week. I got a job at a burger king and made friends with the other kitchen guys. They all liked drugs and got me hooked but they let me say at there place for the start when I was homeless. I got an apartment and was smoking pot and that got me into heroin. I got fired at burger king and got hired at Sonics as a smoothie maker. I met a female named Courtney and she became my first lover and nine months lader the mother of my boy Preston. I was still doing smack. We moved in together and started a family for a year. One night we got in a fight when we was drunk and she got mad and drove away. That night she ran a red light and hit a small car. She died and so did a little girl. Court was one of the most good and unselfish people I had ever known. I loved her. I kept asking myself what if one little thing changed like Court didn’t get mad or that other car wasn’t driving so late. Would my babys mama still be with me.
Me and Preston moved to Chicago. I got a job at another burger king. I stopped doing heroin and did other drugs insteed. I would snort lines and walk around Chicago. I met my girl I would later get in trouble with walking around. When I met her she was a hooker. She liked being with me but she didn’t get close to begin. For the first seven months she didn’t even tell me her real name I had to refer to her by her work name. Christi Cream.
Eventually she opened up and told me her name was Tammy. She told me she had a kid two. Her son is coinsidentally a liar. So from this point I will reefer to my son as Preston and her son as liar. I asked her to move into together. After two months of Tammy living with me we decided to get married mostly for money reasons. I thought she was normal but she ended up being bipolar.
One night after we took some good lsd she thought Preston was a lizard. For those who haven’t tried lsd, it is a hallucinogen and can make you see unreal things. She dragged Preston outside and locked him out. I was sleeping and didn’t know that she did that. I let him inside in the mourning but was real mad. I told Tammy we were have to cut down our drugs to be better parents. I got clean and thought she did two. About a month later, I picked liar up from first grade and when I came home I found Tammy with a crack pipe in our apartment WITH PRESOTN home. I was real mad and didnt control my temper. She got mad back and said she was gonna tell police I beat her. She reported me and lier also made stuff up to help his mama. I have a prior record like drug possession, possession of drug paraphernalia, criminal trespassing, sale of drugs to a minor, resisting arrest, and theft. I am facing charges for aggrevated battery wich is another felony and I could go to jail for 10 years.
The lawyer says I am gonna probably be found guilty because no one will believe me. I dont even think he believes me. I am scared of going two prison. I will be the first to admit that I have made some mistakes in life but its cause been alone. I am ready to accept Jesus Christ as my lord and savior. I heard its when we need him most we find him, and I think he will help me get throw this.
All I ask is that you pray for me cause I can be a good person and am a good father. Also learn from my mistakes cause any one can make them.
Thank you for reading it is longer then a page and God bless.
Gary
