My first wife divorced me because she didnt want to hear any complaints at all about some of the stuff she did. She was bi-polar, and manic depressive, and usually when she took her meds, she was pretty good, but she would simply sometimes get tired of taking the meds, go into a manic mood, and buy all kinds of things that she never should have. When I went into the relationship, I had no bad financial marks against me, cash savings, good credit and credit cards that were used only in a responsible way, a car only 3 years old that was all paid for already. She came into the relationship financially with 2 bankruptcies, manic depressive, didnt share with me her mental problems, or that she couldnt have kids. And shortly after being married, while I was at school, she traded my paid for car, in my name only, for a car that was a boondoggle, stopped working after a few months, we had to turn it into the bank and pay $5000 for a piece of junk car that we barely used and no longer had. She did it while I was at school, and I didnt know she had done it till I got home. I was told I couldnt get my car back. Had 2 bankruptcies with her, she abused my credit cards and my credit, and lied to people in my own family to con them out of money. She used the kindness of christians in general to gain money, items. and pity for her health issues (besides the mental ones which she didnt talk about).
She was easy to talk to, very friendly, a great cook, and she loved to buy gifts for others (using other peoples money lots of the time). So she wasnt all bad. I say this all to point out that people who have mental disorders have a responsibility to those that they say they Love. Love is action, not words, not even the nice feeling you get when people say they love you and perhaps hug you or such. Love is an action, so if we love the Lord, we have to act on it. Glad you are getting baptized, its an action, a good one. Although God loves you and will forgive you your errors, be the daughter He will be proud of, that He will gladly tell others how wonderful and courageous you are. Show your love to the Lord, when you fail, ask forgiveness and return to His embrace as quickly as possible for its only with Him and your association with Him, in prayers, worship (in the songs you love), and fellowship, that we grown stronger in the Lord, and better able to defeat the fiery arrows of the evil one.