Dear TheWidowsOffering,
Thank you for your post. This is the second time today that this very story has been mentioned to me! The first was in my devotionals. I know that I am in a battle right now and all that is within me knows I'm not supposed to give up.
I am so thankful for the help I've received here on this site, it is so wonderful to behold so many amazing believers sharing the Lord's love, I just can't iterate that enough. I am in a season of some intense testing in my life, and my fear/thoughts have been that it is the Lord doing this, that surely I must be in serious trouble if some of the things that are happening in my life are happening... I've thought that surely He wouldn't allow this to happen unless I have seriously done a lot of things wrong...
However I've just submitted to this season in my life over the last couple of weeks, and I keep coming back to the same things I have all along... this is the enemy, this is not the Lord. When I look back over my life, I know that the guidance I've received from the Holy Spirit has rightly guided and preserved my life every step of the way, and that is the very guidance that right now is telling me that everything around me simply should not be. I am hemmed in on every side! I've learned what victory truly is, the enemy wants me gone!
Will you please join me in prayer? The things happening in my life are just completely insane, when it comes right down to it. I cannot continue to allow these things to happen, but I need others' prayers to win this one.
I have heard the lesson about how the enemy is like a lion expounded upon... the minister speaking about it went into how lions hunt... they pick the weak, the young, or the injured, and they isolate them from the pack. They know the ways to exploit weaknesses in another creature, and they know that the best strategy is to get them cornered, isolated, and with nowhere to go for help. In this case I believe the enemy knows that when it comes to my family, he can use any fear/insecurity in me to torment me and bring me defeat, and he knows that the best time to do it is when I have nowhere to turn for help. How thankful am I for the wonderful gifts of the Lord, that "something within me" that reaches ever toward the Lord, towards victory, and will not give up when the darkness seeks defeat!
I love the Lord so much. I have made mistakes in the past and those are the areas where that old enemy is seeking to keep me down. But I want to praise Him with my life... He has given me so much, He has called me to do great things! I cannot accept any less than achieving what He has called me to! I simply cannot!
Thank you again, and if there be any willing to pray, lets bring over a thundercloud! I want to keep on until I see the cloud coming that will bring cleansing rain in the midst of a drought.
In His wonderful Name,
Valerie