Saueed,
I cannot even begin to say I can relate to the threat that will hover over your head in confessing Jesus Christ as you Lord, Savior and being Baptized in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Your trust is and must be in Him alone. The same for any who have been called of Him. There is great anticipation in this. For your life is His in Jesus Christ.
[Psa 56:11 KJV] In God have I put my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me.
Yet, knowing that even should you arrive sooner rather than later to end that we all will meet one day. In Him it will be no sooner than He will desire it to be.
[Luk 12:4-8 KJV] And I say unto you my friends, Be not afraid of them that kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do. But I will forewarn you whom ye shall fear: Fear him, which after he hath killed hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, Fear him. Are not five sparrows sold for two farthings, and not one of them is forgotten before God? But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows. Also I say unto you, Whosoever shall confess me before men, him shall the Son of man also confess before the angels of God:
Know Saeed, that Jesus calls us to forsake everything for Him. Yes, even our life becomes His. For many this is too difficult price to bare and turn from him.
[Luk 9:57-62 NKJV] Now it happened as they journeyed on the road, [that] someone said to Him, "Lord, I will follow You wherever You go." And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air [have] nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay [His] head." Then He said to another, "Follow Me." But he said, "Lord, let me first go and bury my father." Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and preach the kingdom of God." And another also said, "Lord, I will follow You, but let me first go [and] bid them farewell who are at my house." But Jesus said to him, "No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God."
For what is yours in Jesus Christ is worth everything.
[Mat 13:45-46 NKJV] 45 "Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, 46 "who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.
So, it remains that you must choose in whom you will trust and obey. Man or God?
You are not far from my thoughts Saeed and know that I continue to pray for you.
With the Love of Christ Jesus.
YBIC
Nick
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