Thank you all. Everyone has given me a lot to think about. I know it says to store our treasures in heaven. I feel I haven't been doing this. I haven't been discipling anyone in awhile because of my mental health issues. I did not want to mislead or be a hinderance to someone. I also feel that I lack leadership skills.
p.s. I also heard/read twice about the prodigal son and the yoke of Christ. Please pray that I take away from these things what God wants me to.
Praying for you. I hope the Lord helps you to know why His yoke is easy & His burden is light because He will do the work as our Good Shepherd to help us to follow Him for why we will find rests unto our souls and not just rest in Him as our Saviour that we are saved for simply believing in Jesus Christ for God is pleased to save those who believe the preaching of the cross.
And mental health issue aside, God is the One that is ministering and so whenever you feel led by the Lord to say something or post, apply your confidence and faith in Him to use you, rather than in your assessment of your ability to serve Him.
1 Corinthians 2:1And I, brethren, when I came to you, came not with excellency of speech or of wisdom, declaring unto you the testimony of God. 2 For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified. 3 And I was with you in weakness, and in fear, and in much trembling. 4 And my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man's wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power: 5 That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
1 Corinthians 3:5 Who then is Paul, and who is Apollos, but ministers by whom ye believed, even as the Lord gave to every man? 6 I have planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase. 7 So then neither is he that planteth any thing, neither he that watereth; but God that giveth the increase.
2 Corinthians 3:4 And such trust have we through Christ to God-ward: 5 Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God; 6 Who also hath made us able ministers of the new testament; not of the letter, but of the spirit: for the letter killeth, but the spirit giveth life.
2 Corinthians 4:5 For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus' sake. 6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. 7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
I dare say that Paul's thorn in the flesh as described as a "messenger of Satan to buffet him in the flesh" sounds like Paul was hearing voices to accuse him in his head for why Paul sought the Lord to remove it from him, but God said His grace was sufficient for him as His power was made great in his weakness and that the thorn in the flesh was given him to prevent others from thinking higher of Paul than they ought to think because of all the revelations & visions coming from him. It certainly would prevent the foot of pride in coming forth in Paul to keep him from thinking higher of himself than he ought to think.
2 Corinthians 12:5 Of such an one will I glory: yet of myself I will not glory, but in mine infirmities. 6 For though I would desire to glory, I shall not be a fool; for I will say the truth: but now I forbear, lest any man should think of me above that which he seeth me to be, or that he heareth of me. 7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. 9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 11 I am become a fool in glorying; ye have compelled me: for I ought to have been commended of you: for in nothing am I behind the very chiefest apostles, though I be nothing.
Anyway, I have been diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic but I believe people have access to my thoughts for why I am getting mischiefs and griefs whenever I seem to go out or relate to people, even family members. Few people are not shy in letting me know they have access to my thoughts by saying things they would not otherwise have said unless they had access to my thoughts. Although I am being made a sport, and oppressed by not being able to have relationships even from high school, as they were distancing themselves at certain points, as this trend followed me since and it finally don on me what was happening all along that I kept brushing things aside as if a puzzlement I could not solve since no one can have access to my thoughts, but that is the only logical conclusion I have now for which they diagnosed me as paranoid schizophrenic.
I have heard that in sorcery and witchcraft, people can read other people minds, and the Bible does seem to infer that infamous Simon the sorcerer was responsible for afflicting the Samaritan people of that area with unclean spirits. I do not believe that was the case but that by technology, they have access to my thoughts and easily grant other people's access now by their smart phones & computers & etc.
I cannot fathom why Christians and family members would think this is oaky as what they do to the least of the brethren they do it unto Jesus; plus doing to me what they certainly do not want any one to do to them. Even secular so called Patriotic Americans seem to think this is okay to do to me thus allowing the powers that be the chance to do it even to them or their loved ones without them knowing.
Signs of the times when people are betraying on another.... and so how does the Lord help me to bear this? Jesus is my Good Shepherd & Lord for how He has prepared the table in the presence of mine enemies *& He will help me thru this.
Psalm 23:1The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
So trust the Lord to help you live with your thorn in the flesh and place your confidence in the Lord to minister through you as He helps walk you through this valley of death together with Him and see how He helps you get through each day to be content, regardless of the evil done to you since our treasure is in Heaven, and be thankful too.
So sending a prayer up for you as well as for me that the Lord will help us to rely on Him for all things as the Good Shepherd He is and to be thankful too while we walk thru this valley of death with Him in fearing no evil for He is with us..