in my country, we have tradition for putting schoolkids into church service. it was a bit annoying, my mother- a practicing witch was quite similar to our female priest (2:12 timothy..) in mentally, hostile, toxic and arrogant.
one day i came there some minutes late, i lived 5 kilometers away and it was winter- about -10 or at least feeling like it, i rode my bike there. she sent me back home, my mother pressured me to be christian while my atheist father who was always more calm and .. honestly more christian attitude said i should pick what i feel like rather.
to complete the christian thing with school i had to go to church 8 times and write down things on a piece of paper on a sunday, greet the priestess and what not. i went there 3 times, but the 2 times i got something wrong and she wouldnt accept it.
but the time she sent me back home, coming from a broken home, riding bicycle in winter time that far - i had enough, i walked back out, i took out the piece of paper and ripped it into pieces infront of the door outside and that was the last time i went there.
i went through many struggles with the authorities, it took me about 20 years to slowly through joking around with the most politically incorrect bible verses to realize that its really the truth, especially timothy 2:12 was something frowned upon by the people of the world (james 4:4)
i got some gold nuggets along the way, randomly contacted by a christian woman who sent me files about blood sacrifices done with christian blood, information thats entirely impossible to get from google. i always dug deep into the truth and i knew the identity of the evildoers since many years
in my years of detachment form god i sinned in many ways, i even participated in the occult (not locally or any kind of groups) - but i stuck to grey magic, barely ever black magic (towards someone else)
my life became increasingly meaningless
i decided to go all the way and i ended up meeting god personally
but still it took me years to realize that the most evil and sick people oppose god and jesus and christianity and spend so much of their time and money on insulting them and ridiculing them
i was really just 1 response away from joining the war in ukraine just to get an interesting way out of this world as that conflict is certain death. having tried anything i possibly could i decided to take up the cross, i spent months researching the bible and how to become a christian
finally i became a christian, and not with just one magic press of a button all my issues were solved, that still took me a while, but not long after i got married as i desired for, since i have become a christian ive gotten a stable job and a stable relationship
i still feel theres a lot of sins that im paying the debt of on the sideline- sometimes it feels like its just the devil hating my success
im slowly working on getting my familys structure together again since thats very important and it shattered when my grandfather died due to mysterious reasons, which in hindsight seems like some occult manifestation or even direct assasination
now i judge people righteously, i forgive them for their wrongs and i try to play any part of my life as professionally and christian as i possibly can, and ive even had evil people come to me to make peace with me despite hating me to my core after praying for them
most of the time god is in the background but the times where he shows himself in my daily life its one level above any occult wonders i ever witnessed - because, naturally god is one step higher than the devil. now i work for the king of them all, not the one below the king.
the change was rather mild, and its something i never expected - "from darkness lead me to light"
one day i came there some minutes late, i lived 5 kilometers away and it was winter- about -10 or at least feeling like it, i rode my bike there. she sent me back home, my mother pressured me to be christian while my atheist father who was always more calm and .. honestly more christian attitude said i should pick what i feel like rather.
to complete the christian thing with school i had to go to church 8 times and write down things on a piece of paper on a sunday, greet the priestess and what not. i went there 3 times, but the 2 times i got something wrong and she wouldnt accept it.
but the time she sent me back home, coming from a broken home, riding bicycle in winter time that far - i had enough, i walked back out, i took out the piece of paper and ripped it into pieces infront of the door outside and that was the last time i went there.
i went through many struggles with the authorities, it took me about 20 years to slowly through joking around with the most politically incorrect bible verses to realize that its really the truth, especially timothy 2:12 was something frowned upon by the people of the world (james 4:4)
i got some gold nuggets along the way, randomly contacted by a christian woman who sent me files about blood sacrifices done with christian blood, information thats entirely impossible to get from google. i always dug deep into the truth and i knew the identity of the evildoers since many years
in my years of detachment form god i sinned in many ways, i even participated in the occult (not locally or any kind of groups) - but i stuck to grey magic, barely ever black magic (towards someone else)
my life became increasingly meaningless
i decided to go all the way and i ended up meeting god personally
but still it took me years to realize that the most evil and sick people oppose god and jesus and christianity and spend so much of their time and money on insulting them and ridiculing them
i was really just 1 response away from joining the war in ukraine just to get an interesting way out of this world as that conflict is certain death. having tried anything i possibly could i decided to take up the cross, i spent months researching the bible and how to become a christian
finally i became a christian, and not with just one magic press of a button all my issues were solved, that still took me a while, but not long after i got married as i desired for, since i have become a christian ive gotten a stable job and a stable relationship
i still feel theres a lot of sins that im paying the debt of on the sideline- sometimes it feels like its just the devil hating my success
im slowly working on getting my familys structure together again since thats very important and it shattered when my grandfather died due to mysterious reasons, which in hindsight seems like some occult manifestation or even direct assasination
now i judge people righteously, i forgive them for their wrongs and i try to play any part of my life as professionally and christian as i possibly can, and ive even had evil people come to me to make peace with me despite hating me to my core after praying for them
most of the time god is in the background but the times where he shows himself in my daily life its one level above any occult wonders i ever witnessed - because, naturally god is one step higher than the devil. now i work for the king of them all, not the one below the king.
the change was rather mild, and its something i never expected - "from darkness lead me to light"
