Mary Emily,
I'm 70 years old and I was raised in the Catholic Church. When I was in my late forties (I don't recall the exact year), I believe that God called me out of the Catholic Church into a spirit-filled protestant church where the Holy Spirit was truly welcome and I would be free to grow in the knowledge of Scripture by the use of study Bibles, good teaching tapes, and religious TV & radio programming.
In the Catholic Church of my experience, we were never encouraged to study Scripture on our own in this way. No Catholics that I know of owned Bibles in our town. When I left Catholicism, I knew several priests personally, but only two of them ever preached out of the Bible. These were the only two of the whole bunch who knew the Scriptures.
The last straw began to break not long after I had been asked to be a lector in the parish I was attending. In that role, as you probably know, I was to do the Scripture readings at Mass. Doing those readings was the beginning of my love affair with God's Word.
One Sunday, as I was in the sacristy reading through the readings for that day, I spotted what seemed to be a printed newsletter on a nearby table. When I picked it up and began to read, I saw that it was from the bishop's office and was addressed to the pastor. It was a printed guidline of what the priests were to preach on for that week and what points they were to be certain to stress.
The Holy Spirit was not free to move in that parish as he might want to. Everything was controlled from the top down. Sermon topics and guidlines came down from Rome through the local bishop. The hierarchy was pretty much in control everywhere. And Catholic Church leaders had the cheek to wonder out loud why they were losing members.
I've read that the winds of change are blowing through the Catholic Church at long last. I pray that the Catholic Church's entrenched hierarchial bureaucracts (a.k.a. Pharisees) are unable to quench the Holy Spirit fire this time, as they've done in the past.
SLE