hmm...interesting point, Brighthouse. I love your answer to this, even though it is hard. As for your analogy? If I thought about it too long, it may keep me up nights. Yes, I would fear the light turning off in the closet and the fear coming in. I think I do fear that, now that you mention it.
David777 - I am humbled by your words. I know it has been said to me once or twice prior, in this thread...but I think you are right, there is really no answer, per se, to my question...and probably yes, it puts me in a dilemma, probably per my own doing, I suppose. *Ugh!!*
I think this is wisdom - but very difficult for me to accept - that this is probably (my words!) way beyond my ability to evaluate or judge.
I have also been led to believe lately -- by conversations I've had on this subject outside of this thread -- that choice may make sense. I know that sounds sophomor'ic to you who have already believed this for some time now...but whatever, I'm just being honest.
Vitalii - that was because I view your question as unhelpful, albeit perhaps, interesting. I wasn't deliberately trying not to answer, but I just view it as a question that puts the proverbial "cart before the horse".
I'm looking for truth, and you don't find truth by first asking yourself how you would feel about the hypothetical answers to a question, and based on said answer, you can be lead on which answer-set you would like to live with.
Anyways, that aside, I'll try to directly answer the question you ask (re-asked?) above.
The answer is I
wouldn't exactly know what to do, or how to think if God came down and said to me that no, He is not good by my standard. Why? Well...because you've left two independent variables, variable! You have left both the
"good" as well as the "
by your standard" variables, float! So...I would be left to think that perhaps "
my standard" is faulty, or,
God's character is faulty --- or neither, or nor!?!
If you asked your question in a different way, where you left out the
"by your standard" verbiage --- and God came down and simply answered my question by saying
"No, I am NOT good. I am also NOT evil. I am neither, and I am agnostic towards what you humans consider to be good or evil! I don't think in those terms. Everything has been predestined by me from the beginning, and was setup and put in place before Eden. I created Lucifer, and he was also destine to fall. You may call it a setup, but who are you to question my sovereignty? I did it because it fancied me. I was bored. I wanted to be humored, perhaps. Whatever, it doesn't matter - I wanted it, so it was. And you are part of it. i hope you've enjoyed it. But either way, I know I'm pleased. etc etc...blah blah..."
Did you ever see
The Truman Show? If so, do you remember when the "creator" guy was trying to talk to Truman prior to Truman walking off the set, after he found out the truth of his existence?
To answer your question, I would probably act as Truman did, as he bowed for applause, exited stage left, and never looked back. As he left his "creator" for good.
I would attempt, as best I could, to deal with a good dosing of resentment, anger, bitterness, and contempt for my situation...but I would try to somehow put my chin up. I would try my best to be prepared to accept whatever fate this god would deal me down the road, whether that be what I would consider "good" or "bad"...but truthfully, I wouldn't be sure that either of those outcomes would feel all that different, one to the next. It would be a tragic depressing life. Suicide may be an appealing option...but then again, why even go there? I would live my life for myself and those I care about, and would try to restrain myself from cursing this joke of a god. Or, from time to time, i may curse him just to feel better...but as that would get old, I would go back to living out my existence in the best way I could.
How's that for depressing? That is my answer to your question.
Now, onto happier things?
(thinks to self: sheesh! Why am I putting myself through this!!!)