Greetings
@LostButTrying
I have read quickly over the last four pages to catch up with the conversation, I notice from the beginning you use the Blessed Virgin Mary as your chosen icon for all posts. It would appear that Catholicism was already in you though you appear to be searching having not received what you was looking for in your heart.
The good thing my friend is that, God loves a searching heart, but what we shouldn't look for is feelings to confirm our faith, why? Because if we are looking for feelings we are not looking to God, we are looking for worldly confirmation.
What God is looking for is 'Faith', the rest will follow that's for sure, but God wants your faith.
John 20:29
Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”
Now I notice you mention Muslim Religion, and that Jesus is a prophet in their religion. That is true, they accepted him as a prophet but down graded him from the time of Mohamed. But Muslim is a religion, they do not have a living God, they do not have a God who came to earth and lived amongst us, and suffered for our sins. The Muslim religion is like all religions, 'man's attempt at coming to a god'. They earn merits for doing good, some understand this as earning eternal life through martyrism, gying for their religion.
But true Christianity is not a religion. Christianity, true Christianity, is 'God's attempt to reach save man'. The total opposite to all religions. But I do say true Christianity, as some denominations do try to earn and work their way to God, when you see that you see religion, which is not what Jesus taught, it is not what God's Word says to us.
If you feel right with the Catholic Church that is what you must do, but keep an open heart with the Lord my friend, listen to the preaching, compare it with your Bible, I do not say this because it is the RCC, I say we should all do this, preachers do get things wrong, denominations have different views, it is our salvation my friend, we need to know we are right with God, we cannot blame anyone but ourselves if we follow teaching and do not test it to make sure it is correct.
Be careful with the Internet, be careful with YouTube, only the Bible, God's Word can provide the Truth you need and search for.
Only Jesus can satisfy your hunger, only He can satisfy your thirst. Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding my friend, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will guide your paths. Have Faith, have faith.
John 6:35 (NKJV)
35 And Jesus said to them, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst.
James 1:6 (NKJV)
6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.
Romans 1:17 (NKJV)
17 For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written,
"The just shall live by faith."
Romans 10:10 (NKJV)
10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
Hebrews 11:1-3 (NKJV)
1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
2 For by it the elders obtained a
good testimony.
3 By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.
Bless you