Brother oneiror If I may share with you a few things. It is difficult for anyone to identify with you unless one has been in the persons shoes. Let me show you what I had to learn the hard way! Coming from a very!!abusive earthly dad, nothing was ever good enough.If i played in a baseball and threw a 3 hitter, which I did once, he would talked about the hits i gave up,I was beaten at least 3 times a week,some of the times i earned it to! But by then i didn't care! I figured we all take a beating once in a while! In words or deeds! After his death which I sure was not sad at,I had so much hatered for him, after my mom and brother left his grave site,I said give me a little time with him please,i went on his grave.
I called him every bad name i could think of. i was getting ready to be drafted by the Detroit tigers baseball team,when I got a draft notice to the Vietnam War, I did my very best to get out of this,but there was no way I could.I had worked all my life to become a professional baseball player and now this! I asked the draft board if they would allow me to at least try out!!I explained everything to them!! NOPE! So now can you just imagine how much hatered I had!! LONG!!! Story short! After serving 2 tours in Vietnam Seal team 6 I got out,and could not hold a job. Getting to the point now.
When Jesus found me in a mop closet in college at age 22, again a very long story!! LOL I still had a lot of problems,I had every right to keep my unforgivness of my eartly dad! And did to! But my relationship with the Lord was suffering greatly!! it was always someone elses fault,not mine!! In prayer with my pastor,I was confronted with a Word of knowledge from him,which is bro if you do not know, something spoken of from a person used by God to revel something to you, they could never have known about! (Matt 18:21-35) And then the Lord through him spoke this." Because you will not forgive,you are facing eph 4:27, it is not I who am looking to punish you,YOU are punishing yourself! And the enemy is helping you to remember the bad!
And so began the long teaching and understand bro! ( rom 12:1-2) You mark must change the tape in your head,and you can only do this if you abide in my Word,and I will cause you to escape from the pit you are in.(1 cor 10:13) So bro began lesson one! ( 2 cor 10:4-7!!) So now when I am asked about my early dad, I say I remember the time he took me to the baseball game and we had such a wonderful time,that is what I choose to remember bro! From this lesson,and from God's Word, Jesus helped me to overcome my past,both from my eartly dad, and the war. The escape can only be found by abiding through God's Word!DAILY!! It took me 2 whole years! I was known as being very hardheaded bro LOL Now the result of what Holy Spirit taught me. ( 1 john 2:27)
Forgiving another must be done because we never hurt the one who has done us wrong!! We are the ones hurt! We suffer! That is what the devil wants!! To blame others so we stay in bondage! What has Jesus forgiven me from?? MUCH!! But hey!!! he is God!! I sure am not!! Another excuse i used bro lol, But then he said are you following me mark?Are you my child mark? Then move his sin, as I moved yours as far as the east is from the west AND!!! remember them no more!!( psalms 103:8-17!!!) please pay attention to verse 12 as well. For one who follows acts upon that following! Hope this is not to long for you to read bro!! LOL But I wanted to confirm the Word you got as being from the Lord who truly loves you!
And so I have perfect peace and rest through our Jesus,through his Love through eph 4:32. From what Jesus forgave in my life,the least I can do as his child is obey him, because i love him, not because i am afraid he will beat me! God does not stand over us bro with a baseball bat!NO! Rather in and through his great love he has for each one of us,shows us how to overcome through him!!( 1 john 4:4-6!!)If we believe this bro then we must act upon our belief in our faith!( james 1:22) May this encourage you that Jesus is not a God of punishment,but rather a great and wonderful and mighty God of LOVE!!His very nature bro!!amen!( 1 john 4:17-19) verse 19 the only way we can love is when we recieve HIS!!!! Love,so that we then can follow his example and love oneanother as Jesus first loved us!! blessing bro!