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Part of me wants to be saved, but another part doesn't.

Thanks Glow. I needed that. :)

I actually go to a church. :) But now I'm kind of feeling like the prodigal son... I saw a couple of videos on youtube that really gets my attention. The songs are Luminate - Come Home and Rhett Walker Band - Come To The River. The second song's first lyrics are how I'm feeling now... "I'm torn between myself and Your Truth"...

What do you mean by torn? Are you perhaps doubting? Struggling with sin? Or is it a case of guilt from your past sins? Remember that if you have truly confessed your sin, repented, and believed and trusted in what Jesus has done on the cross for your sins, you are saved, and God has wiped away all of your iniquities from the record. In Isaiah 1:18, God says, "Though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool." God will remember your sins no more. Rejoice and be happy in eternal life, because "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him." (1 Corinthians 2:9)
 
@ Glow: All the above plus some anger... I like the part where it says "what God has prepared for those who love him."

I don't know if any of you care about this but I feel God is probably going to give me a good paying job soon (I find out if I got the job this Monday or Tuesday). I've never had a job this good and if He does give the job to me my faith will be much greater. :)
 
Almost thou persuadest me to be a Christian
Acts 26:28


@oneiroer

I have been thinking about you with some concern......

Your decision comes down to choosing Jesus and eternal life or rejecting Jesus and choosing eternal damnation

There is no middle ground in which to waiver......there is no almost being a Christian

Time is short, the Lord is calling you and He wants to save you
He longs for you to repent and surrender your life to Him
....and He wants to give you His free gift of eternal life

Which part of you does not want to be saved? What is holding you back?
Jesus will accept you just as you are....He loves you so much

Almost persuaded” now to believe;
Almost persuaded” Christ to receive;
Seems now some soul to say,
Go, Spirit, go Thy way,
Some more convenient day
On Thee I’ll call.

Almost persuaded,” come, come today;
Almost persuaded,” turn not away;
Jesus invites you here,
Angels are lingering near
Prayers rise from hearts so dear;
O wanderer, come!

Almost persuaded,” harvest is past!
Almost persuaded,” doom comes at last!
Almost” cannot avail;
Almost” is but to fail!
Sad, sad, that bitter wail—
Almost,” but lost!*

Him that cometh unto me I will in no wise cast out
John 6:37


*P.Bliss


 
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Hi brother Oneiror! Gideon looked to make a fleece with God. ( judges 6:36-40) God honored his. In the new covenant matt 5:34-37 Make no oath or fleece. Now the question!! So what if an unbeliever does? or even a believer does? Since God is all knowing, and only God himself can ever know the heart of man( 1 samuel 16:7!),I sure will let him decide! The problem brother with doing this, is this. I knew a brother who made such a claim as you,and when he got the job, he was very thankful,but while taking the job after some time he forgot all about the fleece he made with God,and terrible things started to happen to him on the job site.He soon lost that job and blamed God! This person claimed to be a believer to!!! That person was me bro! Even though I was faithless in this area God is always faithful! ( 2 tim 2:13)

The reason I set up a fleece in the first place and looked to fool God was because of the money I could earn from that job,it had nothing to do with giving Glory to God or even showing him through me on the job. I told you earlier some things I had to learn the hard way!! LOL But since i sure do not know your heart nor know if you, unlike me would be willing to honor your fleece with God,I will let it remain from your own words.Here is what I learned from my mistake. making a fleece with God is going back to the old law of God. And here is the result of this, for the believer!!

As you claim you are not one, God's mercy and grace can work for all of course! (hebrews 6:4-6) Many mistake this scripture!! Those who believe is once saved always saved use this as well as those who do not believe in it.What this is really taking about though is those who are under the new covenant wanting to go back to the Old covenant! After being enlightened to all of Jesus works and all he did, and saying i like the old way better! If the old law was so great would God have made a new one build on better promises??( hebrews 8:6-13) So Oneiroer i am somewhat torn as what to say to you regarding this.

For the Old Covenant was made to show Israel they needed a savior,does God have any need after Jesus to show this to anyone again? I wanted him to,and suffered greatly because I wanted Jesus to shed his blood again just for me. oops.bad idea! But what to the non believer? Only Jesus in all his knowledge can know what is best for you.So I will sure not stand in the way at all with any words that could hurt you or cause you to stumble! I just wanted you to know something is all! Take this as with all words with a grain of salt and see if this does, or does not apply to you.

I had to go back to the very foundation of my faith after this!( eph 3:16-21) This is God's love that is being talked about here,not our love. verse 19 and to truly know God's love which does indeed surpass all knowledge we can ever have, we become filled up with his love,and look to only please God because he himself has loved us so very much! never for self again, always about others! Always about our Love for Jesus who gave his own life for us to set us, and make us, and keep us always free through HIM!! amen! For whom the Son has set free we are free indeed! ( john 8:36, gal 5:1) May this help you in your seeking bro.
 
Thank you for your concerns. I lost one of my best friends yesterday and I just found out today, and I really realize life is short. I'm tired of sinning. I'm just about ready to make the move to let Jesus into my heart. I don't reject Jesus because I know He is the truth. I think I've just believed lies for so long that I am having trouble. The part of me that wants to be saved hopes that I will turn to Jesus tonight. Sorry if that wording sounds weird...
 
I of course am sorry you lost your best friend! My hope is that Jesus will find you tonight also bro! Wording is not weird, I understand! Lord Jesus I pray for my new brother oneiroer, do not let the enemy take his life without you raising him up as an overcomer through you most precious name! I call upon thy LOVE oh Lord to find him in his sleep,however you choose to preform your miracle! Let every angel stand in heaven and rejoice!!!( luke 15:7) Let my brother enter in your rest through you most wonderful love and grace!AMEN!! We LOVE you brother!! amen!
 
I have a question. Do I really have to say the sinner's prayer? Sorry if this may seem a strange question to ask, but I now believe in Jesus because of what He said in the Bible somewhere about being the way the truth and the life. I'm starting to feel like myself again. I feel alive for the first time since I strayed from the truth.
 
God gave me the job. And I wrote a poem recently if anyone cares to read it. I'm not sure if I'm done but its how I'm feeling now.

My chains tore my heart to pieces.
Sin is the puppet master of my life.
But my heart is the true me.
The pieces of my heart are in time, chained to my memories.
The puppet master of my body wants to destroy myself and everything I care for.
But my heart has a different plan.
Even though it's broken I can still feel it.

I'm trying to decide if I should add more.
 
Just wanted to say I'm very close to choosing Jesus. I feel like I'm in a spiritual battle if there is one really going on. Is there one...?
 
We all have spiritual battles, sometimes everyday. Anyone thinking of becoming a Christian will no doubt be having some.
 
oneiroer: There is no "sinner's prayer" in the Bible, where we ask Jesus to come into our heart and think we are saved. The only sinner's prayer is "God, be merciful to me a sinner" It is one of repentance and faith in Jesus Christ to save us. If He is calling you to do that I pray that you will do so without delay. Commit to follow Jesus. He will give you His power to do so. God bless you!
 
I know one thing that i can honestly tell you. i have never ever ever met a christian who regreted the salvation they received from the LORD. but i have met many people who regret waiting so long to allow HIM in!!! blessings
 
I'm happy to say I've been trying to get closer to God. I'm still struggling, but I've started listening to God... While I was working one day
I thought or I heard not sure which, "you're fine". I was nervous while working. I also purchased the book Battlefield of the Mind and I'm currently studying it.
 
Keep seeking God from the inside and you will learn an important truth. It is not you who chooses Jesus, it is He who chooses you. God bless you brother :-)
 
Thank you PrayerWarr1or. I've felt the holy spirit upon me recently. I've been led to read the book of Romans. I think I'll read it again. I feel like Jesus can be my truest friend. I'll keep seeking God. :)
 
Glad to hear this @oneiroer :)

Keep seeking and praying for wisdom.
 
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You just made the most important and awesome decision of your life. Remember, the time you spend in this world of pain is a trifle compared to your eternity of experiencing infinite happiness and peace.
 
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