I watched this video thinking I was not going to listen to the whole thing.
I told myself, 'well I have chores to do, I have calls to make, I have my dog to take care of'. But as I watched this video, I found myself lost in his message, and with every minute that went by in the video, my thoughts of what I needed to do vanished, and all I could think about, was where am I going? Paul asked that question, and every time, I imagined he was asking me personally, and if he were, I would have said, 'you know what...Im not going where I want to go. I want to think I am going to Heaven, but no matter how much I think I am...after hearing this, I feel I should really evaluate myself and my actions and my thoughts.'
Now I am sitting here crying all over my laptop keyboard, and I dont even care. I have been to many trips with my youthgroup to places like where Paul was in the video, and I thought I had changed completely. But no, it was feeling after all. And I want so much to really change. I want to know how much more I can really change myself, and he stated how, and now everything I was thinking about doing before I watched this video doesnt matter. All that matters now is if Jesus knows me. I want to know Jesus more personally, and I want Him to know me. I think about it, and I know I will have many friends not want me when I go back to school after this summer break is over because of the change I decided I wanted. And I know my family may not be in the same boat as me, and maybe even some of my friends at youthgroup will not be happy, but it all doesnt matter.
The only thing that should matter is Jesus. I should care about what HE thinks, I should care about if He really KNOWS me, and as Im sitting here now, I want to make that change. Thank you Chad for posting this video.
I know this time, that it isnt a feeling. And I have never been so sure of wanting to sacrifice everything in my life, relationships, friends, family, just to make sure, that God knows me. I pray that God continues to bless your life, and the site that you have created, to give truth just like this to everyone. I know the next time I log in to this site, I will be happier and so much more free then I ever could have imagined. I also pray that this video touches many more hearts like it did mine, to change and be more like Jesus wants us to be, and not what the world wants of us. Because my signature should be true for me and everyone. That we should all want what God wants. It never was about the world.