I once tried reading the bible, cant excatly remember why i gave up but i suppose i can give it another shot. Which bible is the official one?
I apologize that this is a bit lengthy:
Look Zendra, I can't say what is the best thing to do from here but your "supposing you can give it another shot", I don't think will do.
I haven't even asked but , I think I have seen some refer to you as an Atheist. Whether you are or not, I don't look at you any differently. You are a product of the way you were taught or not taught and I respect that. I don't have any particular "ax to grind" except to help you find what I believe is the truth. I am 62 years old, been in and out of church, and raised my two sons up in a church for 30 years and I was only saved about 6 years ago. I have never been a "follow the crowd" or an easily excitable person. But with all the worldly treasures in my possession that I wanted ( family, wealth and friends), I found myself on empty and lacking something and I asked God to come into my life and "boy" did he ever!
Whether you personally label yourself an Atheist. Agnostic or what ever, I personally believe you are here at TJ's for a reason, that you find yourself at a cross-road and you are searching for more truth in your life. For example, I have seen some real die-hard Atheists before, and I don't see you spew the hardcore hatred for God and Jesus that they do.
So, here you are. You have to ask (yourself) why are you here? Why did you find this Jesus forum and what do YOU want.
Are you here to vehemently appose the authority of Jesus Christ and his teachings, I say no. I think God is actually calling you. If you are a complete Atheist, then I am wrong and probably nothing but God himself can change your view.
Don't take a "well I suppose" attitude. Take this opportunity to seek the truth for the first time. But, you have to do your work; God wants all of you are none of you! It's not really that difficult but don't expect this to happen over night but, that is left up to God.
Jesus has a very famous saying ( I am paraphrasing) :" I am the truth and the truth will set you free"; only until that happens to you will you understand it and it's is my heart felt prayer that you do.
A this point start with any Bible, not Mormon, not Jehova Witness but the Bible; KJV, NIV, RSV, NRSV and others. A good study Bible like the NIV Study Bible is good. I read and work with several Bible versions.
Here is one last suggestion: start with the New Testament, read and study all of it and only go back to the Old Testament when it is referenced to. After that you can go back to the Old Testament and read it in it's entirety. Otherwise, do as you are led. I would pay particular attention to what St. Paul says why Jesus was Crucified,Buried and Resurrected.
I am a friend Zendra and I am always here to help in your journey!