Dear Sister,
No, the real question is, that regardless of the circumstances, are you ready to go Home to be with the Lord?
Unless you believe that if God has work for you to do, that He can keep you here no matter what, or if your work is done, that He'll be calling you Home, and nothing that man does or does not do, will keep either one from happening. Then you truly don't know the God you serve!
I know that debilitating/frightening symptoms are about. For the last 4 years I took care of my wife, as a neurological disease attacked her slowly taking away her motor skills functions from her body one at a time. From walking, to speech, etc., they each went away, as we waited for the Lord to call her home! She could have made the decision to take a shot to end it, and she even contemplated having me leave her (which I won't do) to go live the life she believed I should be living. So, after her going home the end of this July, I don't suddenly change in my belief because now it could be me! No, if you truly believe God is in control, then no matter which choice you make as it pertains to this vaccine, it shouldn't make a difference to you as a believer in Christ Jesus!
Yet, for you it seems to make a difference! Why is that? Who is the ultimate purveyor of truth to you? Is it man or God? Who do you rely on for your life? Man, or God?
I am not blind to the realities or ways one could wind up dying or living for that matter! Yet ultimately, it's not mine to make, except in seeking His Mercy and Grace.
As I've said before God bless you that you haven't caught COVID or have had any adverse effects or any other debilitating disease, accident or what have you. Can't you show the love of God to others, who don't see it your way? By your words you have shared here, apparently not! And for that I sorrow for you and pray for you as well. That as Paul has said, and I hope you understand these verses:
For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what [is] the width and length and depth and height-- to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him [be] glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen. Ephesians 3:14-21 NKJV
With the Love of Christ Jesus.
YBIC
Nick
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